Does anyone know where to find one?
Also, how do I know they aren't a fake, and that they are good?
I guess there is only one way to know if someone is a skilled demon killer.
You have to be able to actually witness them kill one.
Because after all, stories of demon killing just aren't good enough.
So where to find someone, that is willing to fight a demon?
Are there people specialized in demon fighting?
Oh yes counselors, but even then, how do I know they have fought one, and aren't just following some manual? How do I know they truly have felt the fire and fear from a demon?
Why not just go find someone thats already fighting one?
Why not go into the INFP forum?
I end up feeling like, I wish I could go help other people fight their demons more.
Even worse, I end up feeling like I could be something other than a demon fighter.
Perhaps I am many other things, a lover, a father one day, a businessman in other ways.
But what stands out amongst those four things. Demon fighter.
That is something I have to live with.
Its not that I'm lonely per se, I have others in my life. Its not that I'm not successful, I am successful enough.
It is that this damn pain of fighting demons, almost constantly, either new ones, or old ones that I got to close to while feeding them in the dungeon I hold them in.
Well the pain is hard. It makes me, I just wish I could help slay other people's demons more.
Perhaps its because I would like to be loved and appreciated more.
But logically, why are they not seeking me out?
I am a demon killer.
I know how to kill a demon.
Are they so in denial, that they will not seek out a true demon killer, and settle for someone with a "good story" about it, rather than witnessing it with their own eyes!!!
Are they so selfish, as to expect me to be perfectly normal at the same time as fighting demons, so that I can help them with theirs?
No I tell you.
They must come, they must knock, and they must plead.
Because INFP's are the demon killers, and we don't take it lightly, in fact, we have no choice.
I am not stuck up, I am just fucking busy.
Even though I often sit at my house, materialistically.
I am doing anything but sitting.
I am introverted in the depths of Hell, fighting, slaying, guarding the gates to Heaven.
Not literally of course. This has all just been an INFP metaphor about how I relate to the problem, an exercise of confidence, dignity, and appreciation.
I truly am not always fighting a demon, and even if people are ignorant out there, I'm going to help as many people as I can find.
If they dont want my help, fine, I'm not going to carry around a war axe.
I will let life take care of the people that don't want me, and I will spend time with the people I love, as often as I can.
And if you are one of those that I love.
Cheer me on, and continue doing what you do that you were gifted and put on this earth to do with.
I will not compete with you, my hands are bloody, I would let myself be hurt from behind the second I turned unnecessarily to look upon you.
But if I look upon you with love, love is a weapon, that kills evil.
Give me your love, and I will have an even greater weapon.
It is one or the other. I can not choose to let go, I must fight, but if one gives me their love, or I give love in the rare moments I am not in battle, perhaps I can enjoy free of burden, the laughter and the green grass for a while... :)
Keep heart, for I am thinking of you and those like you when I battle, and I am always near when you need me, but you have a strong heart, and I know you will partake in this battle of good and evil, or be patient for me when you can not.
-An INFP, Warrior, Slayer, Protector of Morality
*I love you said he with a bloody sword and a heart full of sadness, but I do not want to stain your lovely dress. Close your eyes, so you do not lose your smile that lights the depths to my heart.