I'll try to keep this short
I did this small group project with an ENFJ in my class, and we kinda clicked. Well not kinda. It was like....i was living peacefully and quietly in my introverted bubble, writing poems, painting, baking cookies and daydreaming and just.... being alone in peace. I have a reputation of a quiet girl in our school. Then this ENFJ just pops out of nowhere and smashes everything with his hammer of pats on the shoulder, smiles, LOTS of eye contact, praises, jokes, supportive smile and awesomeness. At first I was really shocked, but now i just stare at him with awe. He really is pure awesomeness, brave, charismatic, friendly, supportive, caring.... i could cry just thinking about how great he is
We didn't really have any serious conversation, it all happened so fast and i was shy. I'm just a shy person, i can't help it! I mean, if you're gonna blow my mind and crash my world, at least give me one week advance warning. After the group project, he kinda kept watching me and trying to take eye contact with me, and i kept being shy. Now he has backed off, he no longer tries to talk with me or touch me. He still takes eye contact and mysteriously appears to places i go, like once during a break i was chilling with my best friend and he walked by us 26 times. literally 26 times. I mean, could be a coincidence, but still... and since he stopped talking to me, I've had withdrawal symptoms. I miss him around.
I thought that this is a guy i really wanna get to know, so last time we saw each other, i smiled at him. He smiled back and then looked down. Why? :(
I wish i could talk with him. I wish I could sit with him during lunch, or at least near him, and just watch him smile and laugh and make everyone feel valued. I love that about him, he has this awesome talent to make everyone feel valued and accepted. But I also wish I could get to know him, I wish i could show him my old treehouse and really talk with him in there. I wanna know what is his favourite cake so i can bake that to him when it's his birthday. I wanna know his favourite movie so we can watch it together if he catches a cold. I wanna know what makes him sad, so i can hug him and tell him everything's gonna be ok. I wanna know what makes him hurt so i can kiss him till the pain goes away. And i just wanna be there, where ever he is, and watch him being the awesome person that he is.
sigh.... head in the clouds, but I don't care.
I've read that ENFJs like chatty people, maybe he doesn't like me since i'm so shy? I really wanna talk with him, but I don't know what to do. Write a love letter? That would be weird... Right now I just stare at him and look away when he catches me doing that, and I hope that he figures out my feelings for him :) At the same time I feel he might like me too, but since he's an ENFJ, I don't know... He's nice to everyone. I did feel like I was special to him, but then he backed off.... Was it because I was so shy? I didn't mean to hurt him :(
You who read this till the end are a super hero :D here's a cute hamster