I find myself in a weird position and I'm wondering if anyone can relate or can offer insight to help clear up my confusion.
In essence, I've been into MBTI almost a decade now, since high school, but due to a rough couple years after graduating college and living independently, I've come to question a lot of things about myself.
I've most often gotten ENFJ as my test results, which I strongly identified with, though I got many others that also I identified with, including ISTP, and I more or less embraced the fluidity. Now I know ENFJ's supposedly have a hard time seeing themselves objectively and have the same functions as ISTP's just reversed in the stack, which indicates ENFJ to me, but they're also rarely type 8 on the enneagram which makes me skeptical. I started learning about the enneagram about two years ago and I'm all but certain I'm type 8w9, with the only real other consideration being type 9w8; they supposedly imagine themselves being more 8. And statistically speaking, types 8 and 9 are far more strongly correlated to ISTP with ISTP also being far more common than ENFJ. I'm not comfortable claiming to be some rare type.
Anyway, I won't go into detail here about "my deal". I've made another post on PerC that I edited down because it pages long, literally filled journals, talked (big step for me) to friends, family, a therapist, and done so much soul-searching stuff that I've found myself obsessive, obnoxious, and obviously still very confused about who I am. Suffice it say, I'm at least good at compartmentalizing, adapting, work, and being self-sufficient.
But what is healthy for me? Emotionally/mentally, I'm not entirely sure what my strengths and weaknesses are, so it's tough to narrow things down and figure it out. I'm sensitive to other people but honestly pretty callous and have good intution, Se, and Ti. It's like I've a very broad, general, kind of vague identity, that's also well-balanced between ENFJ and ISTP. I'm probably just very average, but that's why it's weird to read all this stuff for ENFJ 2's or ISTP 5's. I connect with some things but not much. I feel like a jack of all trades, master of none.
Anyone else an ENFJ 8? Got any insights? Am I just overthinking all of this? I'll post in the ISTP forum too eventually, but the vibe seems much more subdued and like I wouldn't get the same kind of feedback.