I've mentioned a handful of times my time in Los Angeles and how it wasn't very pleasant. I learned the hard way that interns should be seen and not heard and it wasn't until recently that I figured out why I had a hard time since was because as an ENFP that goes against my general nature.
I worked at a small production company in Century City for about three weeks. This was where my bad time started.
I went in with a cheery face and was kinda excited to work in an office. Well, I knew I had to do drudgery and it ended up me with my other friend interning there doing mundane office stuff. I put up with it but man the drudgery was killing me and the stuffing of binders late into the night after 5pm really annoyed me (because I was hungry and tired).
I was getting worn down on one front and then the next wham came from the workers.
During lunch I was eating my lunch and these two ladies came in and sat down nearby. I started talking to them, but I noticed that they were kinda annoyed so I bowed out and went back to watching TV.
Well after lunch, my supervisor called into her office and told me kindly that I should mind my business during lunch and just eat.
I felt bad and went on. The next two times hurt the most.
I was eating lunch on our production days and there were two actors eating in the cafeteria. Same deal we were talking about the traffic on the 405 and getting a good laugh. I mentioned a story about driving on i95 around the beltway in DC and another one about some road rage on the 101.
Again afterwards same boss called me outside and said to just keep to myself. Hurt I just kept pushing on.
And finally I discovered the last straw which was when again during a production lunch the CEO who was really outgoing asked me a question about where I get my media from (discussing the Comcast/Universal merger). I told him and agreed with his stance of the difficulties of having a small business in a big business climate mention the small group of power players at the top etc etc.
And finally I got a stern yelling from my boss about if the CEO starts pontificating about the world and he asks you for your opinion to just nod and agree. However at this point I didn't care because I already found another internship with a sound designer.
My 2nd internship was better, but my spirit was crushed. The guy I worked with was what I figure to be an ENTJ because he reminds me of my uncle who mentioned he was an ENTJ.
He always made fun of for my lack of knowledge in acoustic science (audio production major) which I just swallowed. It wasn't until I stood up for myself and I fixed his computer that he started to really like me. The guy for whatever really liked me, but I just didn't trust him at all (racist, mentioned stealing, etc). For whatever reason I just don't trust ENTJS because I get the impression if I ever pissed them off they would get me back in some horrible way.
I've been really turned off to the entertainment industry. My dream was to work as a sound recordist and post production mixer for film and TV but this attitude has me scared to high hills.
My gut tells me to run the other way, which to be honest I'm ready to listen to. I've been planning on grad school, the peace corp (yes!), or to keep on this connection I have to an investment banker I met during my job as an orientation leader for my college.
However my heart still dreams of making movies. What does a discouraged ENFP do?