New help with enneagram type, trytipe, IV and so on
Now I'm looking for answers about my enneagram type (and instinctual variations and so on). Let me put some points here:
I'm a really anxious person. I'm always looking to the future and planning. It becomes more serious when I'm in a relationship, because I am very troubled about losing my partner and things changing for no real reason...
I'm a perfectionist who always want to give it's best to the world and people. I always put a lot of pressure on myself doing the 'right' thing, to make others pleased with me.
Even if I'm a perfectionist, another side of my personality doesn't really like following rules and procedures, and I stay lots of time in my own head (and it causes me trouble dealing with the practical side of life, very much neglected and put on a second side).
I have a tendency to not being assertive and to hide my own thoughts from other people. I'm very shy and, unfortunately, passive (I'm trying to deal with it).
I'm curious with my mental pictures, but once I can give it shape, know well what I want to find. I'm not the kind of person who draw a lot of different lines outside myself to know something, but inside of my own head, things are boiling at a hot temperature...
I don't like to deal with my own anger. It's usually repressed, though I know when I'm stressed out. In a huge stress state, I tend to be very physical and impulsive.
My feelings, in general, are usually repressed, as my anger...
I have kind of a 'knowalotofthings' personality, but my memory tends to function in rather an unconcious way. I absorb lots of information whithout knowing how.
I stay lots of time trying to figure out unconscious pictures. Usually there's a picture that comes to mind and I deal with it as a friend. I'm so used to see them that when they come it's like a natural thing, even if it's kind of a vision. I could realize better that they exist talking to my junguian therapist about it.
I'm very unattached to things and to the majority of people. It's like there is an untransponible distance between me and the object. I'm not really attached to physical reality and it's realms.
I want to do something to change society, one way or another. I want to bring innovation to this world, specially about technology and/or spiritual knowledge. I'm skilled in counseling people, calming them down and offering ways to go and non judgmental shoulder.