Okay, so a little while ago I posted a very sentimental letter to ENTJs, talking about how much I like and admire them for perhaps unconventional and unseen reasons.
Unfortunately, the thread got closed. I don't know why threads get closed on here - I'm still pretty new to the site.
Nevertheless, I read all your replies. And reread some of them.
I wish I could reply to you all individually, but the thread is closed (SO FRUSTRATED), so I decided to write my reply as a new thread. I'm probably breaking some rules doing this, but I don't particularly care. It'll probably just get closed.
I wish I had actually replied sooner, but, like the timid creature I was, one ENTJ replied rather brusquely right off the bat that I had posted on the wrong thread. I wasn't offended, but you know - Squeak! - I went away and hid in a corner and didn't come back to the site, thinking I'd done something wrong and no-one would reply to the words I dug up from the depths of my soul.
So, here are a few of my replies:
1) To Eventive:
Um. I'm not sure how exactly I see your vulnerabilities. I mean, people watching comes rather naturally to me, and it's an intuitive process - stand me in a room with a couple of people and I can 'gauge' their personalities. But this boy I had been glimpsing (Not staring...too scared to do that) about the place for many years, and it's something to do with the eyes. There is a buried feel in the eyes. I'm sorry if that doesn't make sense. Also, when you're unhappy, or burying pain, you tend to take on this forced masculine aura where your jaw tightens and your energy turns hard and brittle, like you've become a human shield of some sort in order to keep the pain and emotion locked inside. And when it does leak out, your voice turns from strong and confident and voluble to clipped and short and hesitant.
As to how to appear more like a ruthless killer...well, you guys do a pretty good job of that already. It's just that kind of confident energy you possess, an energy that crushes everything in your path and makes everyone take your words as gospel. If you want to appear more ruthless, don't show any feelings at all. But that's impossible, because you're human just like the rest of us, as much as you'd rather appear like a calculating machine.
Yes! I'm going to approach him. Haven't got the chance yet, but I will when I do. Don't care if he blows me off. I'm soft, but resilient.
2) Sweet Pickles.
I shall talk to him. He probably has caught on by now - that is, caught on that I absolutely loathe him, because I go into avoidant mode when it comes to my crushes. And what trick?
3) Stiletto & Tea Path
:) You can't imagine how happy it makes me, to know that I sort of understand you guys. You are all so, so fascinating. Please don't be afraid to show your vulnerabilities. Trust me, INFPs will love you for it.
It's okay! Haha. I did get scared away for a bit, thinking I'd done something wrong, but I came back and enjoyed reading everyone's replies. I was mad that the thread wasclosed, though.
Oh, I'm glad I've gained a relatively good understanding of ENTJs. And I'm doing it purely out of interest. Really, the gist of it is I kind of fell in love with this boy from afar and rather than talk to him like any normal person, I just spent a couple of years analyzing to see the kind of person he was. So, not really out of self-interest. Just extreme, extreme curiosity about this personality type. I don't think he's the type of person who would be, in the end, interested in me.
I don't care if my sappy post made some ENTJs laugh and not respect me. I don't think such a person is just a bad ENTJ, but not too great a human. If it was friendly laughter, that's okay, but I'm assuming you mean mocking laughter. And I meant objective as in based on my observations, as untainted by emotions and prejudice as possible. I don't always succeed, but I try. :)
And thank to all those who replied, and those that doled out a few kind words. :) Made my first thread on this site a good experience.
Lots of love,
PS: I've made a promise with myself to talk to him when the opportunity arises. I don't think he knows what to make of me: he's scared of talking to me because I seem so 'delicate' and also reluctant because he thinks I hate him. I don't. I just avoid him because I like him. I do that with my crushes. It's working out great.