I need to get out of my house so badly. It is just full of negativeness. My dad's heart is enlarged, he's had heart problems his whole life, and is going to the doctor tomorrow. Those of you who pray, please pray for him (This isn't why I need to move out). The thing is. 99% of the time my dad is the only one who keeps me sane. We don't have deep conversations often about my problems or my life, but when we do, he always, always, always makes me feel better. He listens (unless some cool sci fi thing is on but he then apologizes), he hugs me, he gives me advice like I am an adult. The thing is, we don't catch each other at times often and when it comes to my mom and I (his two women in his life) he likes to stay out of it.
Anyway, today he was out mowing the lawn! With his heart condition! We have an acre and it isn't a rider mower! So I go "Dad! You need to not mow the lawn when your heart is like that!" and my brother goes, "Jenny why don't YOU do it then? I don't see you out there" and my mom goes "yeah I mowed the lawn when you were babies" (a...we didn't have nearly an acre of lawn and b...why doesn't she then go do it?) My brother sometimes mows the lawn, but that comment just bothered me. I wasn't insulting him for mowing it, I was expressing my care. "why don't you..." is more of a come back when you criticize the way someone is mowing...
UGH Why am I so sensitive!!
Anyway, who will take me? I can't pay rent.