I've noticed now that my whole life I've lived with other people. Either family, roommates, or acquaintances. Now, I've been left by myself in these situations plenty and have been absolutely fine. I've also gone long spans without interacting with the people directly around me.
Recently, events have found me alone for a month. Current roommates are far away and I'm alone in the apartment. The first striking thing is the lake of ambient noise. Everything is quiet besides the animals. The second thing is a lack of energy, or presence, that people have when they exist within a space. I can't feel anything but mine. It feels strange to me because now I'm registering how acutely aware I am of other people around me. Without people around, there is just a blankness of perception.
My mind is also playing with thoughts of security and safety. I am alone, and if something happens, I am without the safety of someone nearby to assist me. No one is here to notice if something is wrong. Its a slightly intimidating concept for me. Societies safety net exists all around us. If you're driving on a road and you get into an accident, it won't be long for another motorist to see you and aid you. If you're walking down the street and collapse, it is likely that a good Samaritan will help you out.
In this pocket of solitude, there is a chance that the social safety net could fail. Who would notice if I drank too much or took too strong a dose of medication? Who would notice if I injured myself and was unable to seek help of my own accord. No one would. Not for weeks, because everyone is under the default assumption that I'll be fine. When I go camping, I tell people. If I don't communicate back for a few days after I should have returned, people would become alarmed and take action. But if I don't show up to work for a few days, people will merely assume I just quit.
With all this being said, I feel I understand better why I prefer to live with people. There is a safety to be found in the company of others. It is not just an emotional safety, but a practical one as well.
So my question to you, dear reader, is which do you prefer and why; To live alone, or to live with people?