Posting this in hopes of seeing other extroverts who relate/introverts who didn't know this was a two way street.
I'm a very extroverted person and I LOVE sharing with other people. I get a kick out of watching shows with other people, dancing with other people and sharing favorite tracks, discussing life experiences, greeting strangers on the other street, joking around with customer service at stores I'm a regular at etc. Whenever I find a person who responds well to me and vice versa, it's SUCH a thrill.
But I have a horrible fear of being annoying/people not getting me so I repress this side of myself as much as I can. The moment I see somebody isn't ACTUALLY interested in me and is only faking it, I close off and turn the attention to them. The moment one of my friends doesn't enthusiastically respond to my messages, I avoid messaging them first. The moment somebody doesn't respond to my friendliness, I temper myself and become cold. I wish I never tried to get to know these people.
People disappoint me so often that I wish that I was somebody who could spend more time alone. Who could enjoy things without sharing them with other people and didn't need human interaction to feel fulfilled. I've worked so hard on cultivating this type of independence that other people often view me as a hyper-introverted person who thinks other people are annoyances. Um, no. When you criticize me for not "opening up to you" it's because when I tried to, you were so disinterested that I ended up feeling like shit and stopped trying. In reality, I'm always looking for people who care and who I care about too.
I also work really, really hard on finding things that I find fun to do when I'm all alone and I'm SO jealous of introverts to whom this comes naturally. People who can spend hours alone doing nothing but playing their favorite single player games/working on their art/doing other hobbies and don't rely on anyone else are my heroes.
Honestly, you introverted folk don't know how lucky you are.