Im an ENTP, if that is at all relevant.
I have anxiety and depression issues, and sometimes, shit really hits the fan for me, on a mental/emotional level. This has been like this for as long as I can remember. Im 21.
I am also constantly discovering new music. Most of the time, the music acts a "savings deposit" for whatever emotions I experience at the time. Conditioned stimuli.
now, the absolutely fucking weird thing is that during the time I am anxious as fuck, life falling apart nonsense, I connect my current musical tastes with that mental experience.
once the ants get outta my pants, and I chill out, I can't listen to that music anymore because it psychosomatically makes me sick and very anxious.
after about six months passes, I hear that music again, and instead of fear and anxiety coming up, I feel every positive emotion that that certain time had to offer. Its like during that time, there was some really positive shit that I coulnt see because of the mental strain. the negativity connected to the song seems to change into a very positive memory, even though that past experience was hell.
so, why do I get positive emotions when I remember shitty times from long ago?