Hi PerC. After ruminating on the state of my brain, I thought it worth a post about intelligence.
Do you feel dumb more often than you feel smart? Does this feeling affect how dumb or smart you think you are? Does intelligence matter at all for your well-being? Does de-valuing intelligence indicate a wider wisdom?
I ask because I used to value intelligence far, far more than I value it today. When I was in high school, I aspired to be intelligent, to amass knowledge, and to use this knowledge to further my goals. Since then, I've found that knowledge of that sort has less value to me. At the time, it was necessary for purposes of scoring well on all the right tests, getting into the right schools, and so on. Today, I am often dumber than my peers in tangible ways (gaming has shown me this many times over), but it has less effect on my emotions.
However, when I allow this supposed deficiency to reach my emotions, the effect is devastating. So if I make a bad play while in a certain mood, the rest of the game is forfeit in my mind, and I just feel sour.
But when I game in another mood, winning or losing couldn't matter less. I only care about everyone having a good time. Does this attitude reflect approaching a greater wisdom, or simply a change in perspective?