Hi. I'm talking about birth control. I am not happy with the healthcare system and have not had good experiences. So, allow me and yourself to vent, and I'd appreciate some advice.
First off, I was on Yaz. I felt more tired, kind of depressive and changes in my mood. I wasn't sure if this was also caused by a bad relationship. Or was the relationship bad because I was moody? Not sure which goes with which, meaning who the heck was I then, and what the heck caused it? That is not a reassuring thing at all...
That has also been off the market. I'm not too knowledgeable. Whether the doctors prescribed it to the wrong people or it really affected people the wrong way.
I was around 18 and noticed changes in my body, so I looked things up and thought I was pregnant. I was being ridiculous, truthfully. But, I was frantic and panicking, and went from x to y, and there was no comfort. There was no check up after taking birth control. Hello. If I take something that is messing with my system, please make sure that everything stays okay...
So, paranoid there. Then, I go to a gynecologist. She is quick in and out the door. Makes me wait for god knows why, comes back, makes small talk while she's 'investigating' me, doesn't talk about birth control or I don't think she fully grasped my situation. Didn't give me time to talk about it. Said things like encouraging me to have sex, if I use a condom, and that it's good to once in a while. Like it's an option only.. So not personal and unprofessional. And to get a gynecologist or a doctor, I have to wait so long, go through one person, one place to the next. No one fucking cares.
Now, from her, who didn't even give me a follow up, I got a prescription for Alesse. Okay, I went to the pharmacie. And got Alysena 28. Which was recalled because it had too many placebos. I read that Alysena is a generic band that ties in with Alesse, maybe cheaper or something. But, it was recalled. Thus, I'm feeling paranoid and that it's unsafe. Do I go back and ask for Alesse? Is Alesse good? What pill is safe? If I have to pick another pill, do I have to have a doctor just sign a freaking paper, to get what I want. I have other things in my life to do. I want to be safe. Am I supposed to run around to x and y, who don't care that I'm a or b? Jesus.
Am I ever supposed to feel safe having sex?
P.s., this is probably unclear and I probably read up on information too much and freak myself out, but this is a serious thing. And please, no stupid, sarcastic, condescending answers.