Whatís it like to be you?
The quest for more knowledge, the meaning of life, the philosophical questionsómy mind is always occupied, and whatís exciting is when I get to follow through with an insight and do something. I am an abstract future thinker, looking at things from different perspectives. Iím about the relationships and possibilities and enjoy anything with deeper meaning that leaves me wondering, with more questions to ask and things to untangle. Connecting for me means being able to intuitively ask questions of people to get them to go deeper into the things they are talking about.
Inspiring others, helping them find their purpose or meaning, being a different kind of leader from whatís traditionalóthatís really gratifying. I just do that naturally. The challenge is opening up peopleís minds to have their own original thoughts. Iím a listener and guide.
I think I am a mystery to people. They never really understand me and part of me enjoys that. More often though, I long to be understood.
I tend to approach my day with a structured way of getting things accomplished. People see me as organized, thorough, and easy to get along with, pulling my own weight and eager to help out when called upon. But Iím not as outgoing or as critical as I may sometimes appear. I need a balance between people contact and working on creative projects and will break away from interactions when I get tired out. If I donít have some long-term goals, then whatís the point?
I tend to intuitively read people very quickly, but I have to be cautious not to make assumptions. Iím an observer. I get a feeling when people are interesting, and I watch from a distance, make some assessments about the situation, and then approach them and engage in conversation. I put a little bit out and a little more and see how that goes. Do I trust and like them, are they who they say? I have a few deep friendships. A friendship comes best when it is worked to develop that investment. I quickly pick up on sincerity and withdraw if the person is superficial or obviously doesnít care. When I see people who abuse their power or wonít stand behind what they say, that ticks me off. Itís about integrity. I feel other peopleís feelings, and taking on that burden can make me too intense and serious, where I canít be spontaneous and fun loving.
I like whatever gets us to think beyond the box, where people can function better because they are not afraid to say things they really feel. I have a lot of imagination and by and large can amuse myself. I love independent projects and reading and writing. I do my best thinking alone, and I like getting out in nature, being alone to go inside and center myself. I have always been drawn to the spiritual. Everywhere, I see life in symbols. Symbols give me focus. Sometimes the connections and perceptions in my mind are so abstract there are no words to explain. A lot of times I just know something and canít explain itóa premonition thatís hard to articulate. If itís strong I usually say something or explore where itís coming from, but I will keep it to myself if people donít seem to understand. Informed decisions require lots of information and looking at a situation from as many different points of view as possible. I find it amusing, the absurdity in everyday situations.
It is painful when there is conflict or when I offer advice and someone chooses not to take it. For me, I have to prepare myself for what is going to happen so I can either support people in a positive way or get away and wait out the inevitable heavy duty stuff before returning to fix things. How will it impact me and the people in my life? Will it put me in another place or another level where I can grow more? Not knowing the right thing to say and do is stressful.
Everything revolves around growth. Caring is about the ability to help others grow. What I bring is caring about people, not things. If we spent more time trying to understand each otherís point of view, to communicate more effectively, we would grow. In an honest, open, sincere relationship, I can accomplish anything. My challenge is to create those kinds of relationships. I respect most the person who is willing to come forth and be an individualóto make the world a better place, or make a difference in a personís life, where we reach each otherís hearts.