I am an INFJ type 4w3 having a severe bleeding disorder. And I ... really don't know my worth.
I have been the most turbulent student in my class. Consider me a Sine curve or perhaps an AC current. Sometimes being almost as good as the toppers and at times being below average.
With reading about type 4's lost sense of identity, you can try imagining my case.
The type 3 wing makes me thrive to be the best in competition but my 'problem' greatly hinders my performance, my lifestyle actually. What I try to identify myself with say, C.Ronaldo, when playing sports but forgetting my body is never going to be fit like that. I don't take any prophylaxis.
I am turning 23 this year, I guess I realised this pretty late, HA!
I am graduating this year, and finding myself looking at the mediocrity of the society around me, the mediocres around me. The toppers flying away. And the worst part is watching the mediocres around me being able to *PUSH* harder, that I can't!
This post might seem like another whining about life from a feeble young adult. But I am really looking for a serious advise one final time.
Before you say, just do what you feel like, if you can't do this then try something else.
But the point is, what is the point if I .... can't shoot for the stars to be even able to land on the moon.
I am from India, the second most populated country just in case you forgot. It's very competitive, quality of life for the middle class is not great (well it might be than the middle class from Sudan but then what is the point me being different and what is the point of this post).
Also, Society is Ignorant. Just what might happen to this post as well.
I had a drug overdose by mistake yesterday but yeah, I survived. I was scared as hell.
Sorry, I made this post a bit darker. But I consider your sensitivity and open-mindedness to understand what I am going through.