I'm tired, mentally exhausted, alone and irrelevant IRL. My existence is filled with a deep yearning for wanting to belong to something. Yet, pursuing that very desire is what has led me to my emptiness - so perhaps what I aspired to be was not really what I should be - therefore time to change my aspirations and life goals to include some of my own instead of everybody else's. My desire to shut out the world is mine own but not for others to understand or comprehend. My goal now of being alone, living for myself is a willing one and seems to be bringing me closer to the happier reality. One day, when I do meet my maker, I'll tell him/her to end my existence completely because i don't want heaven, and I don't want hell. I've already found both IRL.