This is a discussion on The Venting Thread for INFJs within the INFJ Forum - The Protectors forums, part of the NF's Temperament Forum- The Dreamers category; Originally Posted by Sei35 I have nothing more to look forward to in my life. Nothing to live for. I'm ...
Mood-wise this week has been pretty good. Mildly-optimistic, content and stable. Until a few hours ago.
It was to be expected. Retrieved some more stuff from my ex's place. Seeing here again proved to be a lot more difficult than I expected. Our brief encounter has darkened my mood and activated my sadness again.
On the one hand I know that distance is necesarry right now and probably for a long time. But I still love her with all my heart and I just can't....don't want....to miss here for months and months. Going through a break up is so intense and so difficult.
What makes it all the more difficult is that she is the other half of my soul, my twin flame. Not being around her is punishment, a punishment I don't deserve.
And I am mad because of it, livid. At the world, at God our creator, at her, at anything and everything. If only our creator could explain to me why this needs to happen......I think I have a right to know....
God is telling me she wants to marry me. But I think if that were true she would actually talk to me. God is just manipulating my feelings.