I'm really getting sick of the self torture i keep putting myself through. Today i found it hard to get out of bed, got up quite late, but at least managed to tidy my place, eat etc. When i have nothing to do, i quite literally sit on my laptop within my own thoughts wondering, what the hell is wrong with me? How can i improve my life? Why am i not happy? I end up google'ing basically everything i have going through my mind, all the questions, trying to find answers, maybe that one nugget of information that will be a light build moment, and pin point exactly what it is that is making me depressed, anxious, over thinking etc. I hate it, i hate how abnormal it feels doing this stuff, researching the most random things
Today i've Googled things like
"How to stop overthinking" "How to change your life"
I seam to have an obsession with doing this, and it really doesn't seam to help either, at least my current situation
What am i doing? Why am i doing this? And is it normal?