i guess the thing about me is that...people don't like me. i don't have a very friendly face, it's one of those "deadpan-annoying-rude-person" faces, and people don't usually like those. so, by assuming my entire personality based out on my face, people don't try to be friends with me. and that makes things way more difficult because i never start conversations and friendships, except when i'm alone for too long, then i start to talk to anyone who even looks at me because i can't stand being alone for too long.
i'm thankful for the 3-4 friends i have because going through the trouble of making new friendships is exhausting.