If your profile information is correct, you are older than most of us here. You should know better, about life, the world, and the answers to your questions. It is not very profitable to get validation from the younger generation. At most, we're good for throwing ideas with. Maybe different opinions and perspectives are needed, but it is a stretch, at least for me, to truly understand where you're coming from.
Sorry I'm not of much help. I'm in a difficult situation in real life, as many people are. I can't afford many hours of staying in the safety of my head anymore.