Feeling extremely lonely, empty, and invalidated enough to throw it all away and do something stupid.
I've been missing school since last week because I couldn't cope. One more week of this and I risk failing classes.
I'd tried reading, changing my reading list, praying, chatting with friends, chatting with new people, spending time with my bff, watching anime, watching a series, doing chores and errands, going to class twice even though I felt sick, and going to my therapist. Nothing worked long term. The most I could get for my effort was an hour or two of validation. Yeah I exist. So what? Life is f*cking painful. I didn't ask to exist.
To top it all off, my head hurts like crazy right now.