During the summer, I’d written so many posts in this reply box here, so close to submitting, confessing, but I had always changed my mind at the last minute. Out of curiosity, I clicked “Restore Auto-Saved content” today to see which aching sentiment has been frozen there. This one was written just a few weeks before my breakup. It was the exact moment I realized that everything I thought I knew about that relationship was wrong.It's been a year since I've really felt like myself again. And for so long, I didn't want to hear what my intuition had to say, but I promised I'd listen.
I'm not just moody for no reason. The death knell is ringing non-stop now. I'm holding onto the littlest, last bit of hope. I keep thinking about your smile, your laugh -- those faces you make, laying with you, the person you are... and my heart is breaking.