I joined my school's Varsity Track and Field team (in our school team, no one gets cut) with only one friend, who eventually left. For a week or two now, I've been by myself and have been feeling like crap. It's been really hard to talk to people because everyone already has their own group of friends, and I don't want to just barge in. One of my close friends, who was going to do it but gave it up for dance, told me to be more gregarious (which is easy for her because she's so extroverted) and to start conversations and stuff.
So I tried that today, failing every time. The first time, I said hi to an acquaintance, who just looked at me, barely smiling. Later, one of my childhood friends who I've lost contact with and is a year younger, was talking to one of her friends and was like, "I want to do a cartwheel! I'll only do it if you do it with me _____!" Because we did gymnastics together when we were younger, I tried playfully telling her I'd do a cartwheel with her. At first I thought she didn't hear me, so I repeated it again, but she wouldn't even look at me, even though I was standing right next to her. The junior, who's in one of my classes, noticed this and talked to me a little before. I think she got the impression that I was a loser, thus she shouldn't talk to me. I asked her three times which leg we were supposed to jump with while trying our triple jump, and she obviously ignored me.
It feels like crap.