I am very deep in hermit mode right now. A few months ago I had the chance to befriend a lot of people, given the setting, but I had no interest in that. I still have no friends right now (I had some, some years back), nor a partner or anything besides my family and that is fine to me. I am very happy with myself. But...
(There always is a "but.")
But something tells me I should pursue friendships again (and maybe even start dating). I can't really name it. I seem to have forgotten why friendships are good but at least I remember they were good as long they lasted.
Currently I don't share a context with anyone any more (like school, university or work - the letter of which will possibly change, soon), but I have some ideas to meet people. Problem is, I don't actually feel like doing it. I know I could go somewhere but I don't do it. It seems like a lot of one-sided work that never really is reciprocated (like you put a lot of energy into a relationship and the other does nothing and if you are tired of all that expenditure the relationship is over).
So the question is, why do I (or we) even want friendships? Seems like one has to put a lot of energy and time into it, which could be used elsewhere. And how does it even work, making friends (or making love happen)? I seem to only be able to make acquaintances, now, but nothing beyond.