I feel that I constantly need to modify my conduct to survive at work. Me being an introverted person I need to extrovert at work so that I can get along with my co-workers. I like my co-workers in spite that they are not perfect people but it wears me out when I have to constantly act a certain way that is not natural for me to make them happy. I try very much to be liked while other people ask like assholes and get away with it and last a lifetime in their jobs. All of my co-workers are in their 50's and I am in my 20's so there is a huge age difference, so sometimes is very difficult to relate to them, and since I am the youngest one plus I am a new employee I try very hard to be seen as an efficient worker, and in the end of the day I am exhausted. I know that my co-workers are watching every move I make, how I dress, how I act, and how efficient I am at work, and I worry about messing up. As an introvert I sometimes need time alone which is difficult because my co-workers need to talk all the time, and sometimes about mundane things. Since I don't go out that much and have many friends, I ran out of topics to talk about and I am afraid to seem boring. There are many things I enjoy to do but they don't like or understand. I have a TJ boss who wants you to work exaggeratedly fast, and she is not aware that she is pressuring her employees to much, so I have to modify my conduct to make her happy. I have another co-worker that when she is around she makes the environment a lot better and easier, she is very nice and helpful, but she talks a lot about everyday things and sometimes I get lost in though, so I have to try very hard to listen. My other co-workers likes to party and drink during the weekends, and since I don't do that then I don't talk much about those topics, I just listen which makes me feel out of place.
Sorry for my ramblings but do you feel the same way? That you are very different from your co-workers and you have to act a certain way so that you are not perceived different while other people don't give a crap and get away with their bad behavior?