I quit my job because we got lots of bullies teaming up and just a bad work environment of people finger-poining at eachother and not looking at themselves. I put up with it for a long time due to those I respect but in the end it was a food service job to help me pay for more college and well anyways I decided I didn't need that.
But once I quit I found myself enjoying my freedom and figured I had more time to look for work with my savings and minimal expenses.
Well that was definitely true but that "more time" thinking error kept stretching out to avoid the stress and anxiety of looking for work. Now I have no money for gas, my boyfriend's buying me groceries, and I owe debts to Comcast ect.
Part of me knew I was capable of finding work but I wanted a better job than the one I had, but at the same time had anxiety about the entire situation, how do I find one, interviews, getting turned down. I wasn't motivated by need cause I had money so somehow I managed to just exit out of the problem by watching TV or going to the lake ect.
Anyways anyone else find themselves making really odd choices like this despite being a college educated adult or smart haha
I'm so embarrassed to tell my friends and family stuff like "can you buy my groceries" or no I can't visit you I have no gas money or OMG I AM SCREWED SOMEONE LOAN ME MONEY EVNE THOUGH I DID THIS TO MYSELF. Because I know it's my fault and I don't see why someone would loan me money without resenting or distrusting me I am just not asking for help which is abizarre thing to do to. But that's my personality. Anyways, instead of asking for the money I need for internet which is pretty important for getting a job or money for a bus pass or gas, I'm trying to earn money quick through surveys online haha.
Anyone else have these weird personality quirks? Is it a symptom of anxiety? I'm not too worried about it bc even though I don't like I do this I know it's a choice and sometimes my brain gets hi-jacked by thinking errors or fleeing anxiety and once shit gets real I always get my shit together... but I know that lots of people are like that. Procrastination and shitty choices are pretty common.
know any websites I can get money from quickly thanks. I can't donate blood cause I weigh 110 lbs