I Don't Know How to Be in Love
For the first time in my life, I've started to wonder if love is, perhaps, not real.
I've been in a relationship for about 1.5 years now. I love her but I know she's not the one, and I don't think I'm in love with her. There are moments where I've felt ridiculously giddy and head-over-heels for her, but for the most part, they are few and in-between. In my past relationships, I feel like I enjoy the chase because it's new and exciting, but when the dust starts to settle in, I realize there are inherent incompatibilities that I have trouble getting over.
I'm starting to wonder if the problem is my own impossibly high expectations for what love is. I know that soulmates aren't real and I don't believe in the "perfect match," but I always thought being in love would be more than anything I've ever felt.
What does being in love feel like for you? And how do you know when it happens?