I've tested INTJ very many times but continue to find myself questioning whether this is truly my type. Most recently, what I've really been struggling with are the decisions I make and how I make them.
I find that I often come to a "decision" very early about distant events (eg. where I want to be in 10 years), but between the present and realizing the goal, I often fall into moments of "indecisiveness" during which I feel the need to overanalyze every other option out there. Irony of the situation is, despite the lengthy pro/cons conversations I have, I always fall back to my original decision.
My tendency to engage in these futile explorations has always made me think that I'm an indecisive person who likes to keep my options open. This, among other tendencies, frequently led me to wonder whether I am an INTP. Especially the many conversations and mental gymnastics where I feel the need to consider new options that have been brought to my attention. But in reality, I've already made my decision a long time ago. Decisions I never deviate from. Perhaps despite the illusionary "open mindedness," I am actually more decisive than I thought?
Another quality, perhaps more perplexing, is that my tendency to stick with the original decision makes me wonder if I have a preference for the "tried and true," for stability, for the what has happened vs what could happen. Does this make me more of an ISTJ? I am risk averse in my decisions and have a tendency to stick to "my path" - the plans I have laid out for myself very early on. I entertain possibilities but almost never deviate from what I've initially planned -- I am predictable. I can no longer tell whether these decisions are based on "what is known" and past experiences. After all, I have harbored them for so long... Thinking back, I've followed a very traditional path - college, graduation, grad school, job, etc. It was the best way to reach my goal. But was that because I have a preference for the unspoken societal expectations? Or because it is truly the best path? Do some INTJs appear to follow established guidelines simply because they align with the INTJs' values/ideas?
Perhaps I'm an ISTJ with a preference for finding deeper meaning. Perhaps I'm an INTJ who is risk averse. Or perhaps I'm an INTP with a preference for efficiency and results. I have once again fallen into the INTJ/INTP/ISTJ loop.