That heavy urge to live in ignorant bliss.
I mean, @stathamspeacoat , it's not like I never dream the things you dreamed of but I realized that even when I finally reach it, of course I could be somewhat happier but then I would still be me, the same restless soul who never stop overthinking on so many things, the externalities.
Oh the pain.
You're looking for salvation
You thought that it'd be shining like an angel's light, yeah
Well, the angels left this nation
And salvation caught the last train out tonight
He lost a hell of a fight
He said: "I'm just one man, that's all I'll ever be
I never can be everything you wanted from me
I've got big plans so big that any blind man could see
I'm standing in the river
Now I'm drowning in the sea