Have you tried breaking out of your Daily schedule?3:20 in the morning, Thursday/9th/November/2018
Hello, all the INTP's out there and others too. I am new here and this my first thread on this website. I am from India, I am just like normal INTPS out there. I am a computer science final year Student. I get Average grades in exams with normal Study. Everyone thinks I am a very smart guy but only i know what goes in my mind. I am a master procrastinator. Don't have any siblings. Don't have many friends because of my social awkwardness.(I have 1 Doctor friend who is INTJ) I don't go outside much. My only world is my room, I sit in front of my computer whole day plaiyng games, trying to research useless things(i don't know why I do that.) or trying to watch self-improvement video. One of my good habits is I go to the gym every morning. It's holidays. Usually, I go to College after hitting the gym but nowdays I come from the gym and start to read something after 15 minutes or so I get distracted and I say to myself I'll start from tomorrow let's play some games or search something on the internet (ex: Why am I like this?) and here it goes. My Loop, that's what I do every day. I am single. My girlfriend dumped me because of some stupid reasons (for an example:: Whenever my girlfriend tried to talk me my minds wonders of in the middle of a conversation and after she did her talking I used to say can you repeat that and again I get distracted by my thoughts )
My Problems :
# Suffering from depression and OCD (obsessive-compulsive disorder) from past 6 months This shit got so crazy that I even started getting panic attacks. I am addicted to masturbation. I masturbate daily from an age of 14. Tried NOFAP. Did not work couldn't hold the urge. My psychiatrist told me that I got this OCD because of the guilt I get after masturbation.
# I procrastinate a lot.
# Social anxiety
# Can't pay attention to conversations, get distracted so easily.
# I can think of so many Cool ideas, I start 1000's of projects, Many to-do lists and 100's of plans but the problem is I start everything but never finish anything. All I know is that I can't stick to one idea or plan.
All I know that I can be very productive if I'll stick to 1 thing.
List will be too long if I will write down every problem I have.
ohh f**k I forgot why I am writing this down. Oh yeah, I need your help guys.
Just tell me why am I like this?
What should I do to Improve myself?
I want to reach the full potential of INTP.
(Please don't tell me the answers I know already like = Start reading, bla..bla..bla...)
And yeah, pls don't hate me. Took so much effort to write this down