I would say more internal, though I'm not sure if that is natural. I've made a conscious decision and realization that I have to be an active player in my own life. I must have and seek agency. Hey I might not seek much, but I recognize that the circumstances in my life, given the set of uncontrollables (my family, their economic status, my nationality), is the result of my own choices. It's a more pressure filled way of living, but also the more empowering.