For as long as Iíve known about personality types, Iíve always thought I was an ISFP. Iíd taken the test a million times and the results had always come back ISFP. BUT this just didnít seem right.
Although I've always considered myself as a creative - I have a degree in Performing Arts and have always been interested in creative things - the ISFP personality just didn't fit. Of course, I was absolutely thrilled to be the same personality type as David Bowie, but it just wasnít me. I'm not naturally gifted in creativity, despite loving creative things, instead I really have to try. That's not to say that the more creative types don't have to try at all, but my boyfriend is an INFP and heís naturally brilliant at whatever he puts his mind to, which is infuriating for me lol.
We decided that although I hold similar traits to the ISFPs, I donít care enough about people to be oneÖand Iíve always suspected that Iím not perceiving in the slightest. Definitely judging. So it baffled me that I was perceiving in any way, shape or form.
Fast forward to the 100th time taking the damn test and I answered it more honestly than I have before. ISTJ. Surely thatís not right? Iím not logical enough surely? Iím not a thinker, Iím a feeler. AgainÖ ISTJ. AgainÖISTJ. Damn.
I feel like everything Iíve known about myself is a lie. I thought that because I may have been an ISFP, I could justify my weirdness and why my family didnít understand me (theyíre all Tís and for the longest time I thought I was an F, which explained everything.)
Now Iím just bitter and very confused. Has anyone else ever felt like this? I feel like I may as well give up doing anything creative because itís not what Iím meant to do. All the career paths for an ISTJ are nothing I want to do or am interested in. I know you donít HAVE to go down the personality route for everything but I feel so cheated?
Do I need to do the test again? I get confused by some of the questions anyway and my boyfriend usually explains them but is there any way to know for definite?