Hey, thank you for this forum it helps a lot to read you all.
INFP here, the big brother of 4 child in a fatherless family, i'm 26, so i'm the kind of guy who work for his family but hates every minute at work. I don't need money, and if I was alone, I'll probably live like a hobo or a student for the rest of my life.
I essentially came here to read and maybe find a kind of job I may like and get into, since everything I do is annoying and killing me slowly.
I worked as a mover, a freight repair technician, policemen, sheep shepherd, I tried several times to get back to university to study literature, yet a week later i'm bored and can't stand in place. I wanted also to be a firefighter but can't stand people complaining lol, a carpenter, a merchant sailor officer but didn't make the test, and so on....
I spend so much time thinking about helping others that I don't even know what I want. I don't go out, no girlfriend, almost no friends and the few I got doesn't understand anything I say, but I can't blame them so I don't hang with them, no social media as I hate it, spend my time on video games, sometimes musculation, reading and watching videos about a lot of things since I change my interest almost every week. I eat a subject then I lost interest and switch to another.
But inside I know I'm able to do so many things, yet when I start I quickly get bored and it become a burden to continue in this path.
I like astronomy and literature, i'm even good at writing like almost every INFP I guess. And more than anything I crave for spiritual matter, Islam, christianity, buddhism, i need to fill my heart so my eyes can see a little bit brighter this world. But when I can't, I spend litteraly all day playing video games, doing nothing, as nothing is tasteful.
All I want is finding my path, I'm tired of watching everybody doing so much things and getting joy and contentment and when I do the same things, its not that amazing. Even travelling get me bored, same concrete, same trees, same grass. Yeah its beautiful and different, yet i'm not in my place anywhere. I know that my view on the world, and therefore my capacity of wonder and happiness is depending of how much peace I put in my heart and finding a job, an activity that makes me feel like i'm in the right place. But its seems like a far thing I will never achieve.
Thank you guys for reading me, and feel free to answer what you want.