[ISFP] Time to adapt to the reality of who I am!

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This is a discussion on Time to adapt to the reality of who I am! within the ISFP Forum - The Artists forums, part of the SP's Temperament Forum- The Creators category; Broke up with my girlfriend yesterday. It was no fun, but who she was and who I was becomming was ...

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    Time to adapt to the reality of who I am!

    Broke up with my girlfriend yesterday.
    It was no fun, but who she was and who I was becomming was incompatible.
    INFP as she was she wanted to find a way to work trough it.
    I on the other hand saw the deep Si/Ni difference that seperated us as insurmountable.

    So now I'm single again, my work contract expires on friday and I'm living in a room at my parents place.

    So what options have I got?
    Well since I'm planning to be a poker player, that is what I'm going to do.
    Online poker is the deal and what I need is cheap living space and no work.
    South of Europe is struggling so I think I will move to Spain maybe.
    Rental appartments are very inexpensive compared to Norway.
    It cost me 400NOK ($65) to take the plane down there.
    And then I can play 7 days a week and have full freedom in my life compared to now when
    I'm under all these restrictions living with my parents. Real and imaginary.

    Not to mention that winter will be something that I will not have to worry about again.

    You have to lose everything to be able to do anything they say.
    I guess they where right.
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    ISFP - The Artists

    Want to be independent and "free"? Gotta earn a living. If the poker thing works out, great. Otherwise, get a job. Learn to do something. Sell stuff. Whatever.

    There was a great line from a Janis Joplin song; "Freedom is just another word for nothing left to lose." I've seen things in life time and again that remind me of those words. It's very true sometimes. Not having anything left to lose is usually a blessing and a curse, so be careful of getting to that point.

    Later.

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    I can always go back to working at kindergarden if poker doesn't pan out. ;)

    But I think I need to go see the world a bit.
    To me it seems pretty inexpensive going from place to place, renting rooms/apartments for a week or two and then move on.
    I can't be sure that poker will provide for me, but the rate things are going now I guess I have as good a chance than anyone.
    I have more than enough to live for a year on savings if the going gets rough.

    I get that that point can be dangerous.
    But I didn't choose to get here.
    A bankruptcy, two deaths, a job contract termination, moving in with ill grandmother and a romantic fail has put me here.
    Since so many obligations and ties are gone, I see no reason to stay in this country.
    I have a couple of friends that I will miss, a family, but I can visit any time.
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    @hornet

    Wow this was refreshing to read. Tbh, I'm in a similar predicament. Or in a similar frame of mind.
    I've been in this same field of work for a few odd years now and quite frankly, I've had enough.
    I lost my grandpa a few months ago and since then, I've been asking what the hell it is I'm doing with life?

    I work a job to support myself sure. It's entirely unfulfilling work. Draining amd stressful. To be fair every job has a certain amount of stress but my job isn't worth it imo. Not anymore.

    I've been secretly planning and executing this game plan of starting over. Finding out who I really am, what i truly want to do.
    This weekend I'm moving to a friends for next to nothing for rent, I'm going to find another gig, and save for a trip/adventure to travel the U.S. and write and get back into photography(what I went to school for).

    Sounds crazy? Maybe. Maybe its crazy to work a dead end job, to make someone else rich, to earn enough money to buy frivolous toys and gadgets and silly materialistic things. That ultimately, for me, holds very little to no value. It seems a lot of people work for the weekends and to blow money on the next iPhone or what have you. Is that really what's important? Finding shit to buy on the weekends?

    Not for me. I feel suffocated by this materialistic brainwashing. I know I'm not meant for this fishbowl as it is.

    * sorry for the rant but yeah @hornet go for it man. If you don't try, you'll never know and you may regret it the rest of your life.
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    Quote Originally Posted by cityofcircuits View Post
    I've been asking what the hell it is I'm doing with life?
    Yeah...
    Who wants to be old and ill and think that all they did was participate in a rat-race.
    Doing what you where told and basically being a shadow of your true potential.

    Being on this site we have been given the gift of understanding something about ourself and others
    that few get to hear about and even fewer will accept.

    To waste it in the prevailing Si/Te agenda of the workplace seems like a damn waste.
    Just as wasteful as enduring Si/Fe social claims on your time.
    You get little of value in return, just some scraps from the masters table.
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    @hornet @cityofcircuits

    I can totally relate to the two of you right now. For the past year or so I've been wondering what it is I've been doing with my life; working a job in web development when coding makes my head hurt in a big way and photography is what I am really passionate about. However, practicality eventually would always win out and I would keep at it; I'd always tell myself that I'd take up photography when things were more stable.

    That all came to an end this past Thursday, however. After getting chewed out by a client over some trivial matter (this happens to me a lot), I reached a point of no return and left. Sent off an email saying I couldn't work with that person anymore and went off the grid for the weekend. While having no income is certainly scary, I'm staying optimistic about the whole situation. I see it as an opportunity to shake myself out of my complacency and really pursue the things I really want in life.

    I feel you on the materialistic brainwashing, too. I'd rather have more time to spend on the things I love than money to spend on transient junk.

    We should chip in to buy a VW Bus and go on an American road trip.
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    ISFP - The Artists

    Quote Originally Posted by hornet View Post
    I can always go back to working at kindergarden if poker doesn't pan out. ;)

    But I think I need to go see the world a bit.
    To me it seems pretty inexpensive going from place to place, renting rooms/apartments for a week or two and then move on.
    I can't be sure that poker will provide for me, but the rate things are going now I guess I have as good a chance than anyone.
    I have more than enough to live for a year on savings if the going gets rough.

    I get that that point can be dangerous.
    But I didn't choose to get here.
    A bankruptcy, two deaths, a job contract termination, moving in with ill grandmother and a romantic fail has put me here.
    Since so many obligations and ties are gone, I see no reason to stay in this country.
    I have a couple of friends that I will miss, a family, but I can visit any time.
    Right. Go out and live!

    I don't think many people lose everything on purpose. Having nothing and starting from nothing does give you the ability to try different things. It does give you a sense of freedom. I have a dear friend who has lost practically everything. Nothing holds him back, and he has no reason to stick around any one place if he doesn't want to. Still, he is not happy about "having nothing". I've known others like him, who have been in similar situations. That's why I said it can all be a blessing and a curse.

    Best of luck with whatever you do, and wherever you end up.
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    @JamesB

    Sounds like a plan VW bus FTW!

    My goal is to not only write(finish a poetry book of my own as well as this other fiction I'm working on), but shoot whatever there is to shoot. Recently I've been influenced to express the contrasts between urban development and the destruction of nature. Not a new idea but I'm hoping my cultured aesthetic leanings will weave into the immense tapestry of the subject adding yet another unique perspective.
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