For most of my life, I've been a strong ENFP, but now that I've grown and changed, my introverted thinking has come closer and more frequently to the surface. I'm about to go to college soon and I need to make some concrete decisions about my major. I wanted to be an actress when I was a kid, and wonder if I should still pursue that. The last play I was in was in middle school, but the life of an actress still appeals to me. The independence, creativity, and inspiration through interaction with other creative people are definite bonuses, but I struggle with the drama. I don't like to be dramatic and theatricality was something I considered a strength in the past, but now has become something I loathe and avoid participating in. I want to be in film and I want to be an actress, but I detest the uber-dramatic stereotype that is associated with it, which makes me wonder whether it's right for me. If I become an actress, I hope to bring reality and depth to characters rather than drama. A skill of mine is understanding people and being open-minded about them. My analysis has brought me to three possibilities- either that's an indicator of my potential to be outstanding in the field, or it's an indicator that I should stay away from the field, or it's an indicator that there are factors about acting that sound right for me, but I'm missing the key ingredient and a similar but different field would be ideal.
Although I couldn't do my personality justice in a paragraph or in a simple ENxP, I'm desperate for an outsider's perspective!