I was wanting to ask quite a personal question and see if anyone has any insight that might help from a personality perspective.
I'm a 34 year old male ENFP. I have always been seen be others as quite jovial and silly in groups (even though that's not how I am in private - I'm a pretty personal and serious person deep down). I talk A LOT in public, and sometimes I say daft things, just by sheer volume of words as well as my mannerisms.
Because of how I act and because I don't really fight back, I get mocked incentantly by my group of friends that I have known since I was a child. I do not tend to verbally spar back too much - my humour is the silly kind, and I get more of kick from that and I don't feel I have the wit to win. When I'm in the mood I laugh it off. I went through some really horrible shit recently being ill that my friends don't seem to understand and I don't always feel jovial, even though I don't come across that way.
It has been happening to such an extent recently that I feel humiliated afterwards and it affects my sleep. I've tried within the group to make little comments that it's a bit much. I'm getting too old for it now - I don't need this in my life. I want to put it to bed. What do you suggest?