Missing

I wish the void would suck me away, into the darkness so I could escape. So I could be the missing piece, and never have to wait. But then I'd suck everything around me in, and never stand back up again. I hope I find it. Living a life with a burden this heavy. Compacting and crushing, but won't stop when I'm ready. I need, a cork or a plug so to stop it, cause if I can't have that... This burden? I'll drop it.