Hey all, so here's the story (There's a condensed summary at the end || read the bold as well):
I'm an INFJ who's come to have a lot of emotional stress centered around my relationships, particularly friendships and romantic interests. I've had a lot of high points and low points related to...
Okay, kind of a long read, I'm sorry.
I've always kept a positive attitude with myself, the thing I dread the most is becoming a fat bitter man-hag posting on r/ForeverAlone about how all women want is to date assholes blah blah blah, I'm just too aware that that is not only extremely false...
I just feel physically sick. And so fucking exhausted.
Just having a short pause and catching a breath but feeling like there's no oxygen in the air.
The world was always against me, from the very start. I need stability badly to learn something that would be useful to others, but instead...
How are you today?
Extremely bad. Got stuck in several page long 4th chapter of Databases For Mere Mortals for last two weeks. Can't understand it any more. The terror they subject to me is just to high. I know the day when their plans to starve me will come to fruition is nearing.
BPD, Break up, and Moving On
I'm a 20 year old woman diagnosed with borderline personality disorder (BPD). In May this year, my ex-girlfriend broke up with me after more than a year of being together and 2 years of knowing each other. We are now best friends but I am not entirely...
Well, I'm gonna start by saying, I've always found it difficult to make friends. I feel like there is a mental block when I try to make a friend, so I give up. This whole year I haven't made much of a friend since I've started at my new school. I got tired of being lonely, and decided to change...
I've noticed that when someone tries to get me to open up to them, I'm always reluctant to because I'm afraid that they'll be disappointed by what they find. I'm afraid that I'm replaceable and that it's only a matter of time before they find something that's not great about me or they find...
- How do you react to being abandoned?
- Are you afraid of being abandoned and forgotten? Why?
- What do you do when you are afraid someone might leave you?
- How do you deal with being alone?
Do you think there's correlation between your reactions to being abandoned and your Enneagram type?
Sitting quiet at my desk
Heavy feeling in my chest
Smoke draws thick
Lays me quick
Summer nights are swiftly leaving
breathing. feeling. seeing. believing.
Sight is gone. Love grown cold
Abandoned, now my heart grows mold.
Decaying inside. Fighting just to live
But what is life without my...
It just occurred to me as I came to the end of a flirtation that I attract women who tend to have abandonment issues.
That's probably because I do as well, and can sympathize.
But the killer thing about something like abandonment is that after it's happened to you, you tend to pass it along...