1. What is beauty? What is love?
Beauty is the quality of something that gives pleasure when contemplated.
Love is a kind of affection for another person which is strengthened by both romantical and sensual attraction.
2. What are your most important values?
I don't really know. I could list several values I think are important but I'm not totally committed to, such as honesty, humility, integrity... I'd only mention intellectual honesty, at this point.
3. Do you have any sort of spiritual/religious beliefs, and why do you hold (or don't) those beliefs in the first place?
I am Christian. I have been an heretical atheist and agnostic before; observing the masses and thinking about non-religious philosophies/lifestyles, I've come to identify a loop. I especially wanted to demolish nihilism. I started writing and thinking about Metaphysics, I then recognized similarities between what I had got and christian theology.
4. Opinion on war and militaries? What is power to you?
War can be necessary, especially as a mean through which order is preserved/restored. When war is the result of silly whims, it becomes clear also to nonsentient beings that power should be held only by few worthy people. Power is the ability to exercise significant control over something. It's important, I think, to be ready to face war and at the same time to put it off.
5. What have you had long conversations about? What are your interests? Why?
Long conversations topics: philosophy, literature, psychology, theories, horror stories, videogames, myths, logic quiz.
I'm interested in almost everything, but not all at once, although I rarely ever have less than three interests at a time - there is a switch in my mind, like today it's vowels, tomorrow it's consonants, next it's letters with three lines... .
I guess I'm curious about things, that's why I have interests. Indeed, I'm most curious about novelty or something I haven't understood yet. My curiosity dies when I feel there's no climbing left or it's too slow.
6. Interested in health/medicine as a conversation topic? Are you focused on your body?
Sure, that interests me as well. I'm not focused on my body. I'm very good at identifying symptoms and at weighing the gravity of a given situation, but not for myself; friends feel "safe" around me, but I'm totally blind at my own body's signals. Well, at least I can't be hypocondriacal.
7. What do you think of daily chores?
Ugh. I see the reasons behind them. I know it's more practical and functional to take care about it daily, but I can't help thinking there are several other ways I can use that time. So I procrastinate. It's not totally laziness, it's more a matter of priorities.
8. Books or films you liked? Recently read/watched or otherwise. Examples welcome.
I like Sci-fi, Horror, Thriller genres most. As for books, I prefer essays to narrative.
9. What has made you cry? What has made you smile? Why?
I don't really cry. It rarely happens, it's usually due to an overload (i.e.: stressful situation); basically it's a vent, that's why I cry only when rationality is not required and I can relax.
I often smile because I want to be positive and to spread positivity. Sincere deep smiles are rare and the trigger is related to the people I love. I'm very happy when they're happy, even if I'm eating sheat in that moment.
10. Where do you feel: at one with the environment/a sense of belonging?
Normally nowhere. I don't feel isolated nor alienated, I rather feel like I could fit anywhere if I only wanted to. University fits pretty much, by the way.
Evaluation & Behaviour
11. What have people seen as your weaknesses? What do you dislike about yourself?
Impulsiveness, polemic attitude, pride, public image.
I dislike my randomness, egocentrism, lack of pragmatism, my tendency to talk a lot and sell bullshits to make people laugh, my attraction to intellectuals.
12. What have people seen as your strengths? What do you like about yourself?
Intuition, creativity, logic and emotional intelligence, motivator.
I like the things mentioned above, my adaptability, my fast-recovery and the fact I don't need drama.
13. In what areas of your life would you like help?
Fitness, housework, clothing.
14. Ever feel stuck in a rut? If yes, describe the causes and your reaction to it.
Yes, the first year at university became unbearable to me after few months. I was living in a sort of boarding school, everyday I met the same people, had to greet them, couldn't have a single meal in solitude. Taking lessons became stressful because I found them too easy and slow, so it seemed to me a waste of time, like everything else. People made me nervous, socializing suddenly became insignificant and stupid. I don't even know how it happened, but I actually started staying in my room, avoiding people as much as possible, and I went full immersion: TV series, movies, music, videogames, drawing. I felt like I needed a pause from the world, I asked "why don't people just let me have a rest?" in regards to my friends insisting on making me go out and study. After much time I felt calm, lucid and neat, all that mattered to me at that point was studying and take responsibilities, still no desire to socialize. I had a functional schedule and I perfectly followed it, becoming very efficient. I studied for an exam in one week and for another in three weeks as autodidact and passed with high marks. After this I felt at peace, so I gradually came back to normal and got a one-bedroom apartment.
People & Interactions
15. What qualities do you most like and dislike in other people? What types do you get along with?
I like smart and clever people first of all, then wittiness, eclecticism, rationality, originality, expressiveness.
I dislike drama queens, subjectivity, lack of interests, inconsistencies, lack of critical thinking, fleetingness.
I could get along with everyone but easiest to hardest interactions are with:
INTP INFP ENFP ISFJ INFJ ISTJ INTJ ESFP ESTP ISTP ISFP ENTJ ESTJ ESFJ ENFJ
I don't know any ENTP.
16. How do you feel about romance/sex? What qualities do you want in a partner?
I'm not looking for it, I don't care about sex because I'm no more an adolescent in the grip of her hormones.
If love happens, I'm not in a hurry. Relationships are expensive in terms of time, energy (both emotional and mental). I've made my experiences when I was younger, I'm no longer looking for adventure; if I want novelty I can make new friends or acquaintances, but I only want serious romantic relationships at this point. Above all, I don't want to hurt anyone. I've learned that I easily get bored in relationships if I'm not in love, I end up hurting the other person. That's why "I'm not in a hurry". It's rare to like someone that way, even rarer to fall in love. I also suspect I'm not ready for it all, I feel still immature.
I don't know what qualities I want in a partner; I have to like him first, I've already mentioned what qualities I like in people.
17. If you were to raise a child, what would be your main concerns, what measures would you take, and why?
First I don't want my child to grow with low self-esteem and lack of affection, mama's boy and spoiled. I'd be a present parent, who doesn't frustrate her child's personality or dreams but rather encourages personal development, who scolds her child when needed without being too strict or too tolerant. I'd care about his talents and let him test various fields, I'd like him to develop tastes and interests and to know his own skills. I want him to learn to fail without making a big deal about it, I'd show him that by understanding where the mistake comes from you can overcome it. I can't be specific about measures because it depends on the situation, on the child's personality and other variables.
18. A friend makes a claim that clashes with your current beliefs. What is your inward and outward reaction?
Outward reaction is a mild version of the inward one. That friends doesn't share my beliefs, I can display disagreement and debate it, but I can't expect him to change his mind. So, I could test the principles of that claim and check whether it's consistent with his beliefs or not. If the claim is grounded, like it or not, it's his legitimate claim. I could try to shake the ground if I think it's illogical. Who knows, by confrontation I may find out I'm the one who's been illogical.
19. Describe your relationship to society. How do you see people as a whole? What do you consider a prevalent social problem? Name one.
People as a whole is pure statistic, which is not a good nor a bad thing. I don't feel attached to society although I'd like everyone to live happily, respectably and safe. This society, at the present time, hasn't got my devotion. A real issue regarding this society is the tendency to dramatize social problems to feel actively involved in society. This has become a parade, the main communication vehicle is emotionality. It's going to make a lot of damage.
20. How do you choose your friends and how do you behave around them?
I don't "choose" my friends, friendship happens and two people make it mutually possible. I don't believe in one-sided relationships of any kind, that's alienation. I'd rather answer: I take friendship seriously.
I meet their needs and respect their limitations, and they do the same. I often make mistakes, I don't always immediately understand what I did wrong; I apologize and then commit to improve my behavior. I'm myself with them.
21. How do you behave around strangers?
It could sound weird, but I act more naturally among strangers than when I'm surrounded by acquaintances - I usually explain this in terms of others' expectations; the close box is more inviting. I'm open, smiling, joking. Pedestrians often stop me and we start chatting. Once it ended with a woman hugging me and saying I'm a precious girl. No one knows why it happens to me and only me.