I tend to put things off and avoid doing anything important until I'm good and ready. Because of this, I miss out on many opportunities. I don't let people too close, I don't really seek out excitement and I do less than I normally would in general. It's almost as if I'm going through the motions but I'm working on myself and constantly trying to make things better. I think a lot of it has to do with always wanting everything to be perfect. I know it's irrational to put your life on hold but I can't imagine seeking out new friendships if I might potentially burden others. And I don't want to take on too much in case I'm unable to mentally handle it. Maybe I can handle it but I just don't give myself a chance. It's frustrating because I want to try new things and live in the moment, but it's like a voice inside my head is saying that you're not ready, you're not good enough yet! I want to feel good enough and I want to feel like I deserve to go for what I want. But it's very difficult.
Do other nines experience this as well? Do you know why this happens? How do you deal with it and have you found any solutions?
Do other nines experience this as well? Do you know why this happens? How do you deal with it and have you found any solutions?