Honestly, your reaction is the best thing you could have done, in my eyes... People spend so much time numbed out that it doesn't occur to them to react emotionally when something happens... Suicide is a really awful thing, and so many people ignore it or treat it as though it is funny. By reacting emotionally, you not only refused to pretend to be numb about what happened. You responded respectfully... Someone's life ended prematurely, a death that didn't need to happen... Suicide affects everyone, even when we pretend it doesn't.