PS.A: I think this post qualifies you for a lifetime network of couchsurfing on PerC INTP sofas internationally....PS. When I end up starving on the streets will any of you provide me with a meal or shelter?
PPS. It's 630am. I have yet to sleep. I drank a lot of rum. Excuse my incoherence. I may disagree with some of this tomorrow.
Ha. In that case I suppose I'll e-mail my professors now and inform them of my future absences.PS.A: I think this post qualifies you for a lifetime network of couchsurfing on PerC INTP sofas internationally.
I don't think I will disagree on the overall idea tomorrow. Although I do sometimes grow paranoid that this will one day come back to bite me in the ass. The components I may disagree with would involve my wording implying different ideas than what I wished to convey.PPS.B: You should drink rum more often. Please do not disagree tomorrow.
When I was preadolescent I had a rather decent memory, and I wasn’t so hot with math(I’m still not very good at it). I believe my ability to abstract is fueled entirely by my intuition, and my conscious mind is rather impotent. Reasoning with something new, on the spot, usually results in disaster unless I feel my way through it as opposed to thinking about it. I have a great deal of trouble intuiting my way through a lecture though, given that the information is often fed to me in a sequence that mr intuition doesn’t appreciate.A lot of people who are very good at math are very bad at rote learning. The way they teach biology, if in France it's anything like we do here, just doesn't work well for me, and I'm not even great at math. I think we have similar cognitive styles. The only reason I end up doing well is because when I learn, it's permanent. So I never have to "relearn" stuff we've already covered. I may get a mediocre grade on a test, only to, six months later, be able to explain the material in depth to someone else.
Thanks, and likewise.You're definitely one of the smartest people I've met.
Yeah, it was rough, and not being super sociable I never tackled it as I should have(I think it severely retarded my social development in the process). As a result it’s still an issue for me, 10 years later.@Richard again
It sounds like you had a rough transition into school in France which just did you in for a while. It's hard to learn in a foreign language, I found it tough studying abroad (to the extent that I did any work, heh...)
People underestimate how important it is to be generally content before you can be your cognitive best. I do think PhD programs would get more work, and higher quality work, out of grad students if they attended more to their overall well-being instead of adding unnecessary stress and drama to the whole thing.
Yeah, it was rough, and not being super sociable I never tackled it as I should have(I think it severely retarded my social development in the process). As a result it’s still an issue for me, 10 years later.
My tutors haven’t really asked much of me, or gone out of their way to stress me. Teaching is an option, which I didn’t take as I started my PhD at roughly the same time as I had become ill.
The problem is the lack of structure, as you state, coupled with my complete lack of motivation and time management skills. I had hoped I would find a way of formulating short term goals and keeping on top of shit, but I suck at it.
A vacation would be awesome. The knowing what I want thing is a pipe dream though, I’ve never known.I think you need to take some time off and go away on vacation, think hard about what you want, and go after it.
I had to stop everything and reevaluate my priorities at one point. It worked! Can't say the last few years have been pleasant, but I'm well on my way to achieving the goals I set and I'm looking forward to moving back to civilization soon.A vacation would be awesome. The knowing what I want thing is a pipe dream though, I’ve never known.
I’ll keep on doing shit though, cos shit has to be done after all.
This is my issue, intense focus in the classroom and a complete and total disconnect when I'm not there.I don't have much to say. Just that I've always sucked at school. I've always been average.
But...then again, once I leave a classroom, my mind acts like that class doesn't even exist.
There have been times after the weekend that school feels kinda surreal...that's how disconnected I get once I leave.
I'm trying to improve things this semester though.
I do this all the time. At first, it's like I don't understand something at all, and it must seem like I don't to others, because they often act like I'm just being completely daft when I say "but..." or "wait...". What's going on is that I'm already asking all of these questions in my head trying to retrofit the new information to my "existing knowledge" mental apparatus. This requires that I blindly start trying to shove things where they might not want to go. But then when I get it, and it all fits together, I really get it. No need to repeat the procedure.Suddenly I could infer the semantics behind most of the notation, and I discovered that I understood a fair portion of discrete math too(to be fair it isn’t rocket science, I’m just a tard). After a while, I can be surprised at how information has sunken in and been refactorised during the process.