The S dominated school system is really pissing me off too. It's so focused on rote memorization and recall of facts that I don't think I get a real understanding of the concepts, which is something I crave. I love learning! Yet most teachers think of me as that slacker who isn't living up to his "potential" as a student.
I feel you
I HATE HATE HATE (did I mention that I hate?) memorization and just learning things to take a test and forget it, that's what our school system is based on and it pisses me off so much! I don't like to waste my time.
I love learning too and will usually end up having to teach myself things that really interest me.
I do well in school only because I'm a good test taker, after 11 years, I've learned all their games.
I end up missing a lot of school because I need time alone from everyone to recharge (an I thing), if I didn't I'd go crazy, but I get a lot of shit from teachers about missing so much school.
I know what you mean about interesting conversations too...
The conversations I have are always just boring small talk or complaining about "that quiz we just took"
It's so superficial and boring while in my head I'm thinking about God and the meaning of life
What other highschooler wants to talk about that? lol
I have my good friends I guess but I put up walls so even they don't totally know me
Being a teenager, there are so many stereotypes to live up to and if you don't you're "weird" or an "outcast"
I've tried so hard to live up to those stereotypes only to make myself even more unhappy
Ever thought about cyber school? Seems to me like an INFP's dream
