So..... I find myself in an odd predicament concerning you guys. It isn't really a clear cut predicament too. Let's start of with basics. But I'm gonna be rather honest..... and this might make you large headed... but it's honest.
alright .... basics....
Everyone N I know..... seems to love you all. Me included. You're very interesting and you are very..... hard to pin down. You fulfill a number of attractive things. On the one hand you give off this cute vibe ...... and you also have a really flirtatious extroverted feeling vibe sometimes..... which ... despite it isn't that 100% natural you... it's rather charming. Furthermore you are interesting and smart..... and you school people. If I come to you with some sort of ANYthing I can consistently expect you'll chop my balls of with logic..... and it will be a slight bit uncomfortable for me.... but then I will think and say..... jesus..... that makes sense.
This sort of pleasure coupled with a ball chopping motions (metaphorically chopping off balls of course) makes you like a very good pizza but it has teeth. Sort of. Not really. It feels like teeth but afterward it makes logical sense. I don't know how pizza with teeth makes any logical sense. I'll stop with this weird metaphor.
Anyway.
So I should throw in there my past two relationships were with intps. Both lasted about 2 years. So I suppose there is still some past relationships stuck in my brain that would make a little soft spot for you all.
So the past year or so I've been single. You know.... doin my thang. I dunno why I put that in there. But yea.
What bothers me is everyone's obsession with you guys. ENFJ's INFJs INTJ's ENTJ's INFP's ISFP's, ESFJ's........ at least in my experience....... jumping on your alls nuts.
Now why does that bother me?
Well for one thing I feel like I'm kinda...... not 100% over my last girlfriend and I suppress those sort of thoughts myself. Before you mention that I shouldn't idealize INTP's since I just had two girlfriends...... if you were to say that.... cause I just thought of it....... I do still know about 5 INTP's currently and I still hold my opinion.... that's why I am applying it to INTP's in general.
ANYWAY
The reason why it bothers me is because... ..... alright this is a little ..... embarrassing. But it's the truth.
I'm envious of you really. Because you make sense. You are able to make sense. You can communicate what you think and have it be right objectively. And also because of that stuff I mentioned above. That kind of back and forth motion of..... gosh your smart and have all these beautiful little feelings that you hide (sorry for spillin that) .... but at the same time...... you could destroy me. You also seem to have this ability to guard yourself..... and still be you. I don't have.... boundaries really. And when I do..... I feel terrible.
It's that danger thing that I can't really seem to get over.... and I think I should. Because I don't think it's good. And I am getting over it.... it just bothers me that other people are idealizing you cause it causes me to get into that mindset.
Is this making sense?
Hope this was a good idea. You don't have to solve this for me or anything. It was half way helpful just getting it out there.
alright .... basics....
Everyone N I know..... seems to love you all. Me included. You're very interesting and you are very..... hard to pin down. You fulfill a number of attractive things. On the one hand you give off this cute vibe ...... and you also have a really flirtatious extroverted feeling vibe sometimes..... which ... despite it isn't that 100% natural you... it's rather charming. Furthermore you are interesting and smart..... and you school people. If I come to you with some sort of ANYthing I can consistently expect you'll chop my balls of with logic..... and it will be a slight bit uncomfortable for me.... but then I will think and say..... jesus..... that makes sense.
This sort of pleasure coupled with a ball chopping motions (metaphorically chopping off balls of course) makes you like a very good pizza but it has teeth. Sort of. Not really. It feels like teeth but afterward it makes logical sense. I don't know how pizza with teeth makes any logical sense. I'll stop with this weird metaphor.
Anyway.
So I should throw in there my past two relationships were with intps. Both lasted about 2 years. So I suppose there is still some past relationships stuck in my brain that would make a little soft spot for you all.
So the past year or so I've been single. You know.... doin my thang. I dunno why I put that in there. But yea.
What bothers me is everyone's obsession with you guys. ENFJ's INFJs INTJ's ENTJ's INFP's ISFP's, ESFJ's........ at least in my experience....... jumping on your alls nuts.
Now why does that bother me?
Well for one thing I feel like I'm kinda...... not 100% over my last girlfriend and I suppress those sort of thoughts myself. Before you mention that I shouldn't idealize INTP's since I just had two girlfriends...... if you were to say that.... cause I just thought of it....... I do still know about 5 INTP's currently and I still hold my opinion.... that's why I am applying it to INTP's in general.
ANYWAY
The reason why it bothers me is because... ..... alright this is a little ..... embarrassing. But it's the truth.
I'm envious of you really. Because you make sense. You are able to make sense. You can communicate what you think and have it be right objectively. And also because of that stuff I mentioned above. That kind of back and forth motion of..... gosh your smart and have all these beautiful little feelings that you hide (sorry for spillin that) .... but at the same time...... you could destroy me. You also seem to have this ability to guard yourself..... and still be you. I don't have.... boundaries really. And when I do..... I feel terrible.
It's that danger thing that I can't really seem to get over.... and I think I should. Because I don't think it's good. And I am getting over it.... it just bothers me that other people are idealizing you cause it causes me to get into that mindset.
Is this making sense?
Hope this was a good idea. You don't have to solve this for me or anything. It was half way helpful just getting it out there.