Hey there - I am a teacher - a passionate one at that ( did I say INFP - stands to reason! LOL) at any rate - If I am left alone to teach I would be fine - but there are times - more than I care to reflect.. that I must play part in the "game" - I have gained a rep of not necessarily being a team player - it's not a team player - because when it comes to carrying my weight i do and more so - when it comes time to cover some one I do - but when it goes against my moral code or against what I feel is right ( or is right by law!) then I have issue with this - it's not always easy to sit quiet - then i get a bad attitude and feel like I have to speak up - and then because this wasn't a concern to anyone else - I am looked at as a trouble maker - no there was trouble - I was the only one brave or foolish enough to do so. Does any one else go through this
How can I circumvent my personality to keep my job - Don't say just ignore it - it's not that easy - I feel like I am selling out when i do
I'm a high school teacher, and I have an INFP friend who's also a high school teacher. He feels pretty much exactly the same as you do, and overall I feel pretty similar. The difference is that I'm an ISFJ and I don't really have trouble sucking it up and just doing what I'm told. I know morally this isn't good, but I have a really hard time rebelling and going against authority, especially because like you said, I always am paranoid about my job.
However, my friend...he doesn't seem to care what people think. I think he kind of does, but not really, and he never shows it. He seems to for the most part do whatever he wants when it comes to stuff he's passionate about, and he doesn't care if other teachers view him as a "troublemaker".
As far as worrying about losing your job...he's never had to worry about it. I know it varies from state to state, but here, all principals really care about in the end is the standardized test scores. Since his subject, English, doesn't have one, they don't care nearly as much about what he does. I don't think he's ever been in danger of being fired.
Again, I don't know what it's like in your state, but here, once a teacher has taught long enough to get seniority, it's very
hard for them to lose their job. Unless they do something totally reprehensible, they can't just be fired...a principal has to go through a long process of intervention, observation, and other stuff, and the teacher still has to show no improvement in order to be fired. So it's not easy for it to happen.
Of course, principals can still make your life hell, even if they don't fire you. So there are still downsides to making big waves with them.
I guess the best advice I can offer is to choose your battles. If something is merely irritating to you and not that big of a deal, it may not be worth it to fight about it. But you don't have to bend to the will of everything someone tells you either, especially if you're passionate about it.
But it sounds like to me that you're worrying more about the consequences than you need to. Most likely you'll probably get some kind of warning before anything serious happens, and that would give you a better idea of what you can and can't get away with.