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Out of the 9 Enneagram types, the only types that gets frequently spoken about as having a somewhat fascination with darkness, gore etc are types 5's and 4's [based on my limited knowledge anyways].
I've personally had a fascination for blood, gore, death etc ever since I was a youngster. I have a very hard time expressing and even understanding my own motivation for suicide and darkness. I've been suicidal for as long as I can remember and even now in my darkest moments, I find myself looking at pictures of death, macabre art and allowing the feelings to come out.
Maybe it's because when things are going relatively well, I bottle up the feelings so much that when things start turning sour, they explode out of my system. But even now, I'm not sure if that's 100% accurate.
I don't get it. Can this even be explained through Enneagrams?
I'm beginning to fully understand and accept that I might be a 3w2 core fix ---- but in none of the descriptions I've come across is there any indication that this particular core type could become suicidal even when faced with the worst possible failure.
Are there any other non-5's and 4's who've experienced a sort of "fascination" with death, darkness and explored it?
I've personally had a fascination for blood, gore, death etc ever since I was a youngster. I have a very hard time expressing and even understanding my own motivation for suicide and darkness. I've been suicidal for as long as I can remember and even now in my darkest moments, I find myself looking at pictures of death, macabre art and allowing the feelings to come out.
Maybe it's because when things are going relatively well, I bottle up the feelings so much that when things start turning sour, they explode out of my system. But even now, I'm not sure if that's 100% accurate.
I don't get it. Can this even be explained through Enneagrams?
I'm beginning to fully understand and accept that I might be a 3w2 core fix ---- but in none of the descriptions I've come across is there any indication that this particular core type could become suicidal even when faced with the worst possible failure.
Are there any other non-5's and 4's who've experienced a sort of "fascination" with death, darkness and explored it?