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I'm 16. I shall confess a really odd thing I experienced.

Has anyone heard of depersonalisation? It's so weird how I've been feeling this through my entire life but I never had a name for it. I've experienced it at my first few public speeches, extreme fatigue, and talking to someone I really really like. A form of anxiety attack perhaps? And I thought I was the freaky one. Apparently it's quite common too!

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So apparently depersonalisation is: " a feeling of watching oneself act, while having no control over a situation". I don't think you should be too freaked out because this feeling comes in different extremes and is more common than you might think. ( one article said that 70% of the population had experienced it at one time!) I know what you mean though, because I've had similar experiences but haven't really labelled them as anything. Like feeling numb to the world around you and curiously detached. (Sometimes I think this might happen as a coping mechanism in a really stressful period.) Or just feeling alien and apart from the universe. Or when you look at yourself in a mirror for so long that nothing feels real anymore, your identity is intangible and you feel as if you're looking at a stranger. It's extremely surreal. So don't worry your not that weird :p. But maybe you should make sure it doesn't get worse.
 

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Oh yes, i've experienced this before. It was actually quite scary, and I don't think it's a disorder unless it's a constant thing you know? It's like anxiety, something a lot of people experience momentarily in their lives. I find I get depersonalized when i'm really stressed or I have a huge build up of emotion and don't let it or, it just sits there and I can't handle it so I become detached. I find that exercise really helps!
 

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I'm 16. I shall confess a really odd thing I experienced.

Has anyone heard of depersonalisation? It's so weird how I've been feeling this through my entire life but I never had a name for it. I've experienced it at my first few public speeches, extreme fatigue, and talking to someone I really really like. A form of anxiety attack perhaps? And I thought I was the freaky one. Apparently it's quite common too!

Anyone with similar experiences? l
So apparently depersonalisation is: " a feeling of watching oneself act, while having no control over a situation". I don't think you should be too freaked out because this feeling comes in different extremes and is more common than you might think. ( one article said that 70% of the population had experienced it at one time!) I know what you mean though, because I've had similar experiences but haven't really labelled them as anything. Like feeling numb to the world around you and curiously detached. (Sometimes I think this might happen as a coping mechanism in a really stressful period.) Or just feeling alien and apart from the universe. Or when you look at yourself in a mirror for so long that nothing feels real anymore, your identity is intangible and you feel as if you're looking at a stranger. It's extremely surreal. So don't worry your not that weird :p. But maybe you should make sure it doesn't get worse.
Thank you for your sharing! I feel better now:) Strangely when I have no control, it seems really interesting to see the core of myself interacting with everyone that I normally do not reveal.

On the other hand can someone teach me how to bold the the topic? :proud:
 

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I spent years trying to explain this to people and nobody knew what I was talking about, I didn't even know it was a real thing, I described it as living my life and at the same time watching what was going on like I was watching someone else. I could be talking to someone and at the same time be having a running commentary in my mind, part of me was talking and interacting and anothet part was witnessing. I spent a lot of time healing myself mentally, emotionally and spirituality so I no longer experience this, but this helps me make sense of a lot of things I never understood.
 

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I spent years trying to explain this to people and nobody knew what I was talking about, I didn't even know it was a real thing, I described it as living my life and at the same time watching what was going on like I was watching someone else. I could be talking to someone and at the same time be having a running commentary in my mind, part of me was talking and interacting and anothet part was witnessing. I spent a lot of time healing myself mentally, emotionally and spirituality so I no longer experience this, but this helps me make sense of a lot of things I never understood.
Thanks for sharing your experience! I totally agree. I tried explaining to my family, my close friends and no one got it. I thought I was a freak! Thankfully we know now. It's such a relief to know you're not alone, and there is actually a label for this condition. This disorder is rather underestimated although it is so common.
Can I ask what do you mean by healing? What did you do to stop this from worsening?
 

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I suffered severe depersonalization a few years ago and spent my days contemplating suicide out of sheer boredom. I literally couldn't bring myself to care about anything, and the hazy, unending existence I had meant absolutely nothing to me. I didn't even have a concept of me, trying to hold on to the idea of me was like catching clouds with a butterfly net. I knew it was out of the ordinary though, and it got better with time.

It's rare that I'd experience it now. In retrospect, it's given me great perspective. When I am at the mercy of emotions, even at the worst of times, I can be grateful that I can experience them, even the terrible ones - because it's something that feels real and tangible and worthwhile.
 

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I think thats what I feel in speeches and in other occasional situations. It actually helps me in speeches cause it doesn't feel like I'm actually doing the speech but off in my own little world while my mouth talks on its own and stuff. The words sound muffled when they come out of my mouth.

In terms of other mental disorders, I definitely have social anxiety, but when I took a test, the result was basically Asperger like symptoms. I got touches of OCD, anxiety disorder (general), depression, umm and other things that I forget.

The majority of that was explained by me being INFP (I don't actually believe that I have 20 disorders :p ) though I'm sure that my level of social anxiety isn't quite "normal"
 
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Thanks for sharing your experience! I totally agree. I tried explaining to my family, my close friends and no one got it. I thought I was a freak! Thankfully we know now. It's such a relief to know you're not alone, and there is actually a label for this condition. This disorder is rather underestimated although it is so common.
Can I ask what do you mean by healing? What did you do to stop this from worsening?

Well first off the fact that your only 16 and you are aware that this is going on and want to do something about it is awesome, your light years ahead of where I was at 16. This feeling or perception of life or reality was just something I thought I would be dealing with for the rest of my life, I thought it was how I was hard wired. I also was miserable in every other aspect of my life as well, I was negative all the time and it just wasn't working, it was so mentally and emotionally draining. I got introduced to spiritual teachings and it just all made sense, I was living in my head or thinking mind, I didn't realize we have 2 voices, the thinking mind and our heart&soul voice. One way to tell the difference is if what your thinking or feeling is negative then that is your thinking mind, you created it, and if you can create negative you can create positive. It takes awhile but try to stop all judgement, if you think or feel something negative, stop and ask yourself why do I feel this way and know that it isn't true, it doesn't have to be that way. Also I took time to get to know myself, how do I think and feel about stuff on a soul level, not what do other people think, I stopped trying to please everybody else. Also exercise, it helped me feel connected to my body and ended up giving me a lot more confidence. I don't know if this stuff helps you but like I said at 16 your doing alright, if you want to improve in any area of life just stay positive and give it time, you will see changes. If you ever have any questions about anything you can ask me, were all in this thing together. Stay positive.
 

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This is a symptom, not a disorder/diagnosis. For instance, depressive thoughts can be a symptom of lots of things, from a vitamin D deficiency to clinical depression.

A hell of a lot of people experience to this to varying degrees, including myself and people I'm very close to. I did a lot of research into understanding it and fighting it.

Depersonalisation is part of something called disassociation. Disassociation is a natural human method for coping with an emotion or a situation that you don't want to be in but can't escape from. As physical escape is not possible, the individual instead adopts a subconscious belief that the crap is happening to someone else. Without care, this can quickly become the individual's default method for regulating intense emotions that are uncomfortable for them, from nerves to anxiety to fear to depression to trauma.

There are lots of different phenomenon within disassociation. Depersonalisation is one; another, for instance, is the sense that the world isn't real, called derealisation. The furthest extreme extent is Disassociative Identity Disorder - also known as split personality, multiple personalities disorder. The belief that you're someone else gets so strong you literally are someone else.

The only way to fight it is to face the root of the trauma. To accept what happened to you, and to move on from there. When you feel yourself starting to drift off... use grounding techniques to stay in the here and now. Carefully monitor what you can hear, see, smell. Touch a brick on the wall, feel the rough grains of baked clay under your questioning fingertips. Stay in the here and now.

If there's anything you'd like to ask me, please do PM because this stuff really fascinates me and I would like to help someone right now :)
 

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Yeah, I definitely agree that it is a symptom, not a disorder. At the time I was anxious and depressed following a bad drug experience which sort of made me take a look at my life and made me question who I was and the world around me. I guess it opened up my eyes to a lot of things about myself that I really wasn't able to handle. My depersonalization would often follow with panic attacks and I was 16 at the time too. I dealt with it on my own, only telling a few of my close friends. I began running everyday, really focusing on the people around me who I cared about and spent a lot of time reflecting and accepting myself. I still get anxiety sometimes but nothing to that extent. it was a pretty terrifying experience, especially if you don't know what's going on, you feel like you're going crazy. I find what helped me was to always be busy, because I was really stuck inside my own head just dwelling on negative things.
 

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Funny...just today I had some intense depersonalization..It's actually a pretty scary thing..
Other than that, I get panic attacks (I've been getting less lately) caused by moderate emetophobia.

I also have an inferiority complex which is no fun at all.
I use a unconscious defence mechanism that is common in people with inferiority complexes.

I automatically can name flaws of people around me to subconsciously and temporarily make myself feel better. Yet it fails to work because I end up seeing myself as a narcissistic idiot and the cycle continues.. Lately I haven't really experienced it in a while, but the complex does like to surface once in a while.

I put the letters in bold and underlined them to reinforce the words "subconscious" and "unconscious" because there is a common misconception.A lot of people say that bullies or other insecure people put others down to make themselves feel better. This gives them the false image of a horrible person ; they are merely acting upon a defence mechanism.

That's why I think bullies should really be getting treatment other than just punishment (they should get punished, but be treated afterwards). The way to break the cycle isn't to spread awareness or get people to tell on teachers. It's to stop the bullies themselves, and to do that, you have to get rid of that insecurity.
Anyway, sorry for getting off topic..
 

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This is a symptom, not a disorder/diagnosis.
It actually could be a disorder ; Depersonalization disorder..
It's characterized by recurrent feeling of depersonalization and/or derealization.

People often confuse derealization and depersonalization.
Derealization is when the surrounding environment and its objects, people..etc seem unreal and distant.
Depersonalization is when one and their emotions feel detached.It's often more intense than derealization.

Also, to be considered a disorder, it has to cause significant difficulties in your life and be persistent.
The fact the OP hasn't gone to a psychologist or anything shows it probably isn't a disorder.
 

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Social anxiety disorder is debilitating to say the least. Personally, I hate when every conversation you have with every other human being feels like a job interview and having to be constantly hyper-vigilant about what you say and do for fear of judgment and being gossiped about. It's one mental illness I'd really love to flip the middle finger to and just go out and enjoy life in full technicolor.
 

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Funny...just today I had some intense depersonalization..It's actually a pretty scary thing..
Other than that, I get panic attacks (I've been getting less lately) caused by moderate emetophobia.

I also have an inferiority complex which is no fun at all.
I use a unconscious defence mechanism that is common in people with inferiority complexes.

I automatically can name flaws of people around me to subconsciously and temporarily make myself feel better. Yet it fails to work because I end up seeing myself as a narcissistic idiot and the cycle continues.. Lately I haven't really experienced it in a while, but the complex does like to surface once in a while.

I put the letters in bold and underlined them to reinforce the words "subconscious" and "unconscious" because there is a common misconception.A lot of people say that bullies or other insecure people put others down to make themselves feel better. This gives them the false image of a horrible person ; they are merely acting upon a defence mechanism.

That's why I think bullies should really be getting treatment other than just punishment (they should get punished, but be treated afterwards). The way to break the cycle isn't to spread awareness or get people to tell on teachers. It's to stop the bullies themselves, and to do that, you have to get rid of that insecurity.
Anyway, sorry for getting off topic..
It's fine! I got bullied before and even up till now, I have an inferiority complex too. I totally absolutely emphasise with you and i know what you're going through. I'm sure there're many people out there who've experienced bullying too.
I really like your last paragraph on how bullies should be getting treatment. The current solutions to bullying aren't adequate and so many victims are suffering in silence from the long-lasting effects.
I had mild depersonalisation today again too...and it sucks. big time.
I'm not sure if my inferiority complex is causing depression or anything because when I'm out and social, I don't remember anything from the days of bullying. Yet when i'm alone, it all comes back and resurfaces. I think that's the unconscious part of me, under all the false confidence.
I have no idea how to go about solving this. But I know, many people share similar experiences. And that makes me feel a whole lot better.
 

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Depersonalization is not a mental disorder. It's a cognitive experience, but most, if not all, of us experience it at least once in our lives and to varying extents.

To my knowledge, it does not need to occur when you are in extreme stress situations, but it can be a symptom of anxiety disorder.
 
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