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Ok, I think this is more of a personal thing than an ISFJ, but I totally think my ISFJness is a big part of it, so I'm curious to see if any of you guys feel similar at all.
Until today, I don't think I've ever sat down with my mom and looked at old baby pictures of mine in the old photo albums she has (I'm 27). Part of it is the usual embarrassment/awkwardness that everyone feels, and part of it is that I don't like the way I look as a baby...for the most part I don't find myself to be cute. (though I did see some pictures today that I had never seen before in my life and I thought I looked quite cute
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But I realized today that there's more to it than that. Ever since I was a kid, I hated the idea of me as a baby. I always felt uncomfortable when people told me that I was cute. I remember always thinking "I wish I never was a baby. I'm sure I was a nuisance, and that I got on people's nerves, and they had to deal with all of the messy, nasty things that babies bring."
(I think that's also why I don't like babies in general...that it reminds me of that. This is probably uncommon for ISFJ's since they're supposed to be the "nurturers", but I also think part of that is me being the youngest of three and also being male).
And I realized today that...this is largely due to my ISFJ nature to always serve people and to be needed! When I was a baby, I couldn't help anyone. I needed people to help me, and I could do nothing in return for them. And I think that's why I always viewed my baby self as nothing but a nuisance, and why I hated to think back to that time in my life.
It's so funny because I always wondered why no one else felt that way, and why everyone else seemed to always just feel like "Well, of course you were helpless, that's how babies are! We were all like that!" But even though my feelings didn't make sense, I still felt them.
Now, I think this is probably just my own personal extreme case. But, I was still curious if any other ISFJ's have ever experienced any feelings like this?
Until today, I don't think I've ever sat down with my mom and looked at old baby pictures of mine in the old photo albums she has (I'm 27). Part of it is the usual embarrassment/awkwardness that everyone feels, and part of it is that I don't like the way I look as a baby...for the most part I don't find myself to be cute. (though I did see some pictures today that I had never seen before in my life and I thought I looked quite cute
But I realized today that there's more to it than that. Ever since I was a kid, I hated the idea of me as a baby. I always felt uncomfortable when people told me that I was cute. I remember always thinking "I wish I never was a baby. I'm sure I was a nuisance, and that I got on people's nerves, and they had to deal with all of the messy, nasty things that babies bring."
(I think that's also why I don't like babies in general...that it reminds me of that. This is probably uncommon for ISFJ's since they're supposed to be the "nurturers", but I also think part of that is me being the youngest of three and also being male).
And I realized today that...this is largely due to my ISFJ nature to always serve people and to be needed! When I was a baby, I couldn't help anyone. I needed people to help me, and I could do nothing in return for them. And I think that's why I always viewed my baby self as nothing but a nuisance, and why I hated to think back to that time in my life.
It's so funny because I always wondered why no one else felt that way, and why everyone else seemed to always just feel like "Well, of course you were helpless, that's how babies are! We were all like that!" But even though my feelings didn't make sense, I still felt them.
Now, I think this is probably just my own personal extreme case. But, I was still curious if any other ISFJ's have ever experienced any feelings like this?