Does anyone else have this? I have had it for the past few years and I feel like it will probably take me down for good within the next 5 years. It's so hard to find the good things in life when I am in so much pain all the time. I literally never have any sensations of 'I feel good!' Ever. I am 29 and am starting to go bald from malnutrition. I'm losing weight and entering early stages of diabetes. I feel like I'm 80. All dreams of worldly success and pleasures are gone. Only goal is to feel the love of being alive.