Cluttered Years

A lifetime of standing by and watching people from afar,
keeping your emotions to yourself.
Now, life is all tangled up
and I am trying to straighten it out.
I wanna cry and let out all my bottled up feelings
or the feelings that I never had but wanted to have,
off of me, unshackled,
All of you, please,
release me.
I wanna acknowledge what happened,
and then leave them without feeling guilty anymore.