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For a while now I've been reading and reading about the enneagram and have been trying to justify my type and be completely sure that this is my best fit type. However, I'm still not completely sure that I have this all worked out, and I should probably be especially careful considering the rarity of 4s and 5s. Hopefully the type I have in my sig will be a good indicator of what I feel like I generally best relate to regarding the motives, fears, unhealthy stages, etc.
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1. What drives you in life? What do you look for?
I look for something that I can be passionate about. Happiness is good, but I really want to look for things that I can always find fascinating/interesting.
2. What do you hope to accomplish in your life?
I want to live a life where my values are satisfied. I don't have a strong sense of what those are. I want to pursue something where the newly found knowledge doesn't slow or come to a stop.
3. What do you hope to avoid doing or being? What values are important to you?
I don't want or care for money. I don't want to be somebody who pulls into life looking for something that will make them lots of money. I want to be passionate about what I do. I don't want to be in a competitive environment. My main focus would be on satisfying myself.
4. What are your biggest fears (not including phobias)? Why?
- I'll lose faith in what I'm doing and who I'm with.
- I'll become too reactive to people just trying to get under my skin. I've had quite the history with this, it simply makes me feel bad when people are undermining what I've been trying to build up. I tend to be reactive to this, which can really impact my mood. I understand it's unreasonable to feel this way, yet I can spend up to 45 minutes reflecting on that one thing. I never get anything out of this, and I find myself unable to make any real conclusions from this.
5. How do you want others to see you? How do you see yourself?
I want them to see me for who I am. I might express a stronger tone of who I am in order to make myself more engaged in social situations. This is only when I want to be more engaged though.
I see myself as sarcastic, sensitive, reactive, intuitively engaged, and friendly. I like people, I just don't tend to feel the need to engage much, except with the people I know really well. I can become really socially engaged when I'm with the few people I know really well.
6. What makes you feel your best? What makes you feel your worst?
I feel my best when my needs are met. That sounds bland, but as far as mood goes, I generally don't feel much better than when my very demanding needs are met. Basically laughter, being socially engaged, and feeling accomplished all make me feel good in the spur of the moment. I generally then begin to come back to my impression on the future, and the happiness levels off. However, if somebody I'm romantically interested in smiles at me, that really boosts my mood for quite a while.
I hate being in conflict, I hate being neglected for who I am. I hate when people take what I say the wrong way.
7. Describe how you experience each of: a) anger; b) shame; c) anxiety.
a) In the spur of the moment I can get irritable, but In the long run I generally just feel uneasy or a bit agitated for the rest of the day. I can't quite understand what I'm directing this agitation at.
b)
Shame for not fulfilling as well as I know I can. Shame for doing something that gives off a negative impression to my good friends/romantic interests.
c)
Anxious when I meet new people. Anxious when I think people are likely to judge me.
8. Describe how you respond to each of: a) stress; b) unexpected change; c) conflict.
a)
School/work tends to stress me out. Something being harder to accomplish than expected really tends to stress me out.
b)
This is just annoying. I get this idea and plan of what my day is going to be like, but then when things go south, I simply get really annoyed. Somebody dropping their commitment spontaneously really bothers me. I expect people to let me know ahead at least a bit ahead of time, especially if they have control over it.
9. Describe your orientation to: a) authority; b) power. How do you respond to these?
a)
I tend to take authority if my perspective is complete on things. I don't really broadcast it much, but I absorb and really stand up for my perspective if somebody's perspective contradicts it. I don't think anybody deserves any inherent authority over anything, let everybody share their ideas.
b) Power is worthless unless its necessary for what I want to pursue. If somebody else is simply given power, I'll respect it. I probably won't respect any "justifications" for that power.
10. What is your overall outlook on life and humanity?
We live in a box of our own creation. All of us.
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Sorry for the sloppy sentence structure/writing style. I wanted to rush past everything that didn't concern what my idea of myself actually is.
Anyway, any support from anybody is much appreciated.
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1. What drives you in life? What do you look for?
I look for something that I can be passionate about. Happiness is good, but I really want to look for things that I can always find fascinating/interesting.
2. What do you hope to accomplish in your life?
I want to live a life where my values are satisfied. I don't have a strong sense of what those are. I want to pursue something where the newly found knowledge doesn't slow or come to a stop.
3. What do you hope to avoid doing or being? What values are important to you?
I don't want or care for money. I don't want to be somebody who pulls into life looking for something that will make them lots of money. I want to be passionate about what I do. I don't want to be in a competitive environment. My main focus would be on satisfying myself.
4. What are your biggest fears (not including phobias)? Why?
- I'll lose faith in what I'm doing and who I'm with.
- I'll become too reactive to people just trying to get under my skin. I've had quite the history with this, it simply makes me feel bad when people are undermining what I've been trying to build up. I tend to be reactive to this, which can really impact my mood. I understand it's unreasonable to feel this way, yet I can spend up to 45 minutes reflecting on that one thing. I never get anything out of this, and I find myself unable to make any real conclusions from this.
5. How do you want others to see you? How do you see yourself?
I want them to see me for who I am. I might express a stronger tone of who I am in order to make myself more engaged in social situations. This is only when I want to be more engaged though.
I see myself as sarcastic, sensitive, reactive, intuitively engaged, and friendly. I like people, I just don't tend to feel the need to engage much, except with the people I know really well. I can become really socially engaged when I'm with the few people I know really well.
6. What makes you feel your best? What makes you feel your worst?
I feel my best when my needs are met. That sounds bland, but as far as mood goes, I generally don't feel much better than when my very demanding needs are met. Basically laughter, being socially engaged, and feeling accomplished all make me feel good in the spur of the moment. I generally then begin to come back to my impression on the future, and the happiness levels off. However, if somebody I'm romantically interested in smiles at me, that really boosts my mood for quite a while.
I hate being in conflict, I hate being neglected for who I am. I hate when people take what I say the wrong way.
7. Describe how you experience each of: a) anger; b) shame; c) anxiety.
a) In the spur of the moment I can get irritable, but In the long run I generally just feel uneasy or a bit agitated for the rest of the day. I can't quite understand what I'm directing this agitation at.
b)
Shame for not fulfilling as well as I know I can. Shame for doing something that gives off a negative impression to my good friends/romantic interests.
c)
Anxious when I meet new people. Anxious when I think people are likely to judge me.
8. Describe how you respond to each of: a) stress; b) unexpected change; c) conflict.
a)
School/work tends to stress me out. Something being harder to accomplish than expected really tends to stress me out.
b)
This is just annoying. I get this idea and plan of what my day is going to be like, but then when things go south, I simply get really annoyed. Somebody dropping their commitment spontaneously really bothers me. I expect people to let me know ahead at least a bit ahead of time, especially if they have control over it.
9. Describe your orientation to: a) authority; b) power. How do you respond to these?
a)
I tend to take authority if my perspective is complete on things. I don't really broadcast it much, but I absorb and really stand up for my perspective if somebody's perspective contradicts it. I don't think anybody deserves any inherent authority over anything, let everybody share their ideas.
b) Power is worthless unless its necessary for what I want to pursue. If somebody else is simply given power, I'll respect it. I probably won't respect any "justifications" for that power.
10. What is your overall outlook on life and humanity?
We live in a box of our own creation. All of us.
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Sorry for the sloppy sentence structure/writing style. I wanted to rush past everything that didn't concern what my idea of myself actually is.
Anyway, any support from anybody is much appreciated.